The old Count de Gauvon was going to reply, when happening
to cast his eyes on me, he perceived I smiled without
daring to say anything; he immediately ordered me
to speak my opinion. I then said, I did not
think the ‘t’ superfluous, ‘fiert’
being an old French word, not derived from the noun
‘ferus’, proud, threatening; but from the
verb ‘ferit’, he strikes, he wounds; the
motto, therefore, did not appear to mean, some threat,
but, ‘Some strike who do not kill’.
The whole company fixed their eyes on me, then on
each other, without speaking a word; never was a greater
degree of astonishment; but what most flattered me,
was an air of satisfaction which I perceived on the
countenance of Mademoiselle de Breil. This scornful
lady deigned to cast on me a second look at least
as valuable as the former, and turning to her grandfather,
appeared to wait with impatience for the praise that
was due to me, and which he fully bestowed, with such
apparent satisfaction, that it was eagerly chorused
by the whole table. This interval was short,
but delightful in many respects; it was one of those
moments so rarely met with, which place things in
their natural order, and revenge depressed merit for
the injuries of fortune. Some minutes after
Mademoiselle de Breil again raised her eyes, desiring
me with a voice of timid affability to give her some
drink. It will easily be supposed I did not let
her wait, but advancing towards her, I was seized
with such a trembling, that having filled the glass
too full, I spilled some of the water on her plate,
and even on herself. Her brother asked me, giddily,
why I trembled thus? This question increased
my confusion, while the face of Mademoiselle de Breil
was suffused with a crimson blush.
Here ended the romance; where it may be remarked (as
with Madam Basile, and others in the continuation
of my life) that I was not fortunate in the conclusion
of my amours. In vain I placed myself in the
antechamber of Madam de Breil, I could not obtain
one mark of attention from her daughter; she went
in and out without looking at me, nor had I the confidence
to raise my eyes to her; I was even so foolishly stupid,
that one day, on dropping her glove as she passed,
instead of seizing and covering it with kisses, as
I would gladly have done, I did not dare to quit my
place, but suffered it to be taken up by a great booby
of a footman, whom I could willingly have knocked
down for his officiousness. To complete my timidity,
I perceived I had not the good fortune to please Madam
de Breil; she not only never ordered, but even rejected,
my services; and having twice found me in her antechamber,
asked me, dryly, “If I had nothing to do?”
I was obliged, therefore, to renounce this dear antechamber;
at first it caused me some uneasiness, but other things
intervening, I presently thought no more of it.