except friendship?  Of friendship, madam la marechale!  Ah! there is my misfortune!  It is good in you and the marechal to make use of this expression; but I am mad when I take you at your word.  You amuse yourselves, and I become attached; and the end of this prepares for me new regrets.  How I do hate all your titles, and pity you on account of your being obliged to bear them?  You seem to me to be so worthy of tasting the charms of private life!  Why do not you reside at Clarens?  I would go there in search of happiness; but the castle of Montmorency, and the Hotel de Luxembourg!  Is it in these places Jean Jacques ought to be seen?  Is it there a friend to equality ought to carry the affections of a sensible heart, and who thus paying the esteem in which he is held, thinks he returns as much as he receives?  You are good and susceptible also:  this I know and have seen; I am sorry I was not sooner convinced of it; but in the rank you hold, in the manner of living, nothing can make a lasting impression; a succession of new objects efface each other so that not one of them remains.  You will forget me, madam, after having made it impossible for me to imitate, you.  You have done a great deal to make me unhappy, to be inexcusable.”

I joined with her the marechal, to render the compliment less severe; for I was moreover so sure of him, that I never had a doubt in my mind of the continuation of his friendship.  Nothing that intimidated me in madam la marechale, ever for a moment extended to him.  I never have had the least mistrust relative to his character, which I knew to be feeble, but constant.  I no more feared a coldness on his part than I expected from him an heroic attachment.  The simplicity and familiarity of our manners with each other proved how far dependence was reciprocal.  We were both always right:  I shall ever honor and hold dear the memory of this worthy man, and, notwithstanding everything that was done to detach him from me, I am as certain of his having died my friend as if I had been present in his last moments.

At the second journey to Montmorency, in the year 1760, the reading of Eloisa being finished, I had recourse to that of Emilius, to support myself in the good graces of Madam de Luxembourg; but this, whether the subject was less to her taste; or that so much reading at length fatigued her, did not succeed so well.  However, as she reproached me with suffering myself to be the dupe of booksellers, she wished me to leave to her care the printing the work, that I might reap from it a greater advantage.  I consented to her doing it, on the express condition of its not being printed in France, on which we had along dispute; I affirming that it was impossible to obtain, and even imprudent to solicit, a tacit permission; and being unwilling to permit the impression upon any other terms in the kingdom; she, that the censor could not make the least difficulty, according to the system