prescribed by the law. The conversation of the
encyclopaedists, far from staggering my faith, gave
it new strength by my natural aversion to disputes
and party. The study of man and the universe
had everywhere shown me the final causes and the wisdom
by which they were directed. The reading of the
Bible, and especially that of the New Testament, to
which I had for several years past applied myself,
had given me a sovereign contempt for the base and
stupid interpretations given to the words of Jesus
Christ by persons the least worthy of understanding
his divine doctrine. In a word, philosophy,
while it attached me to the essential part of religion,
had detached me from the trash of the little formularies
with which men had rendered it obscure. Judging
that for a reasonable man there were not two ways
of being a Christian, I was also of opinion that in
each country everything relative to form and discipline
was within the jurisdiction of the laws. From
this principle, so social and pacific, and which has
brought upon me such cruel persecutions, it followed
that, if I wished to be a citizen of Geneva, I must
become a Protestant, and conform to the mode of worship
established in my country. This I resolved upon;
I moreover put myself under the instructions of the
pastor of the parish in which I lived, and which was
without the city. All I desired was not to appear
at the consistory. However, the ecclesiastical
edict was expressly to that effect; but it was agreed
upon to dispense with it in my favor, and a commission
of five or six members was named to receive my profession
of faith. Unfortunately, the minister Perdriau,
a mild and an amiable man, took it into his head to
tell me the members were rejoiced at the thoughts
of hearing me speak in the little assembly. This
expectation alarmed me to such a degree that having
night and day during three weeks studied a little
discourse I had prepared, I was so confused when I
ought to have pronounced it that I could not utter
a single word, and during the conference I had the
appearance of the most stupid schoolboy. The
persons deputed spoke for me, and I answered yes and
no, like a blockhead; I was afterwards admitted to
the communion, and reinstated in my rights as a citizen.
I was enrolled as such in the lists of guards, paid
by none but citizens and burgesses, and I attended
at a council-general extraordinary to receive the
oath from the syndic Mussard. I was so impressed
with the kindness shown me on this occasion by the
council and the consistory, and by the great civility
and obliging behavior of the magistrates, ministers
and citizens, that, pressed by the worthy De Luc,
who was incessant in his persuasions, and still more
so by my own inclination, I did not think of going
back to Paris for any other purpose than to break
up housekeeping, find a situation for M. and Madam
le Vassear, or provide for their subsistence, and
then return with Theresa to Geneva, there to settle
for the rest of my days.