Happy should I have been, if, when in the most disinterested manner I did all the service I could, I had known how to introduce sufficient order into all these little details, that I might not have served others at my own expense.  But in employments similar to that I held, in which the most trifling faults are of consequence, my whole attention was engaged in avoiding all such mistakes as might be detrimental to my service.  I conducted, till the last moment, everything relative to my immediate duty, with the greatest order and exactness.  Excepting a few errors which a forced precipitation made me commit in ciphering, and of which the clerks of M. Amelot once complained, neither the ambassador nor any other person had ever the least reason to reproach me with negligence in any one of my functions.  This is remarkable in a man so negligent as I am.  But my memory sometimes failed me, and I was not sufficiently careful in the private affairs with which I was charged; however, a love of justice always made me take the loss on myself, and this voluntarily, before anybody thought of complaining.  I will mention but one circumstance of this nature; it relates to my departure from Venice, and I afterwards felt the effects of it in Paris.

Our cook, whose name was Rousselot, had brought from France an old note for two hundred livres, which a hairdresser, a friend of his, had received from a noble Venetian of the name of Zanetto Nani, who had had wigs of him to that amount.  Rousselot brought me the note, begging I would endeavor to obtain payment of some part of it, by way of accommodation.  I knew, and he knew it also, that the constant custom of noble Venetians was, when once returned to their country, never to pay the debts they had contracted abroad.  When means are taken to force them to payment, the wretched creditor finds so many delays, and incurs such enormous expenses, that he becomes disgusted and concludes by giving up his debtor accepting the most trifling composition.  I begged M. le Blond to speak to Zanetto.  The Venetian acknowledged the note, but did not agree to payment.  After a long dispute he at length promised three sequins; but when Le Blond carried him the note even these were not ready, and it was necessary to wait.  In this interval happened my quarrel with the ambassador and I quitted his service.  I had left the papers of the embassy in the greatest order, but the note of Rousselot was not to be found.  M. le Blond assured me he had given it me back.  I knew him to be too honest a man to have the least doubt of the matter; but it was impossible for me to recollect what I had done with it.  As Zanetto had acknowledged the debt, I desired M. le Blond to endeavor to obtain from him the three sequins on giving him a receipt for the amount, or to prevail upon him to renew the note by way of duplicate.  Zanetto, knowing the note to be lost, would not agree to either.  I offered Rousselot the three sequins from my own purse,