heart, to the Great Author of delightful nature, whose
beauties were so charmingly spread out before me!
I never love to pray in a chamber; it seems to me
that the walls and all the little workmanship of man
interposed between God and myself: I love to
contemplate Him in his works, which elevate my soul,
and raise my thoughts to Him. My prayers were
pure, I can affirm it, and therefore worthy to be
heard:—I asked for myself and her from whom
my thoughts were never divided, only an innocent and
quiet life, exempt from vice, sorrow and want; I prayed
that we might die the death of the just, and partake
of their lot hereafter: for the rest, it was rather
admiration and contemplation than request, being satisfied
that the best means to obtain what is necessary from
the Giver of every perfect good, is rather to deserve
than to solicit. Returning from my walk, I lengthened
the way by taking a roundabout path, still contemplating
with earnestness and delight the beautiful scenes
with which I was surrounded, those only objects that
never fatigue either the eye or the heart. As
I approached our habitation, I looked forward to see
if Madam de Warrens was stirring, and when I perceived
her shutters open, I even ran with joy towards the
house: if they were yet shut I went into the garden
to wait their opening, amusing myself, meantime, by
a retrospection of what I had read the preceding evening,
or in gardening. The moment the shutter drew
back I hastened to embrace her, frequently half asleep;
and this salute, pure as it was affectionate, even
from its innocence, possessed a charm which the senses
can never bestow. We usually breakfasted on milk-coffee;
this was the time of day when we had most leisure,
and when we chatted with the greatest freedom.
These sittings, which were usually pretty long, have
given me a fondness for breakfasts, and I infinitely
prefer those of England, or Switzerland, which are
considered as a meal, at which all the family assemble,
than those of France, where they breakfast alone in
their several apartments, or more frequently have none
at all. After an hour or two passed in discourse,
I went to my study till dinner; beginning with some
philosophical work, such as the logic of Port-Royal,
Locke’s Essays, Mallebranche, Leibtnitz, Descartes,
etc. I soon found that these authors perpetually
contradict each other, and formed the chimerical project
of reconciling them, which cost me much labor and loss
of time, bewildering my head without any profit.
At length (renouncing this idea) I adopted one infinitely
more profitable, to which I attribute all the progress
I have since made, notwithstanding the defects of my
capacity; for ’tis certain I had very little
for study. On reading each author, I acquired
a habit of following all his ideas, without suffering
my own or those of any other writer to interfere with
them, or entering into any dispute on their utility.
I said to myself, “I will begin by laying up