Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 10 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 83 pages of information about Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 10.

Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 10 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 83 pages of information about Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 10.
government had adopted.  She found means to make M. de Malesherbes enter into her views.  He wrote to me on the subject a long letter with his own hand, to prove the profession of faith of the Savoyard vicar to be a composition which must everywhere gain the approbation of its readers and that of the court, as things were then circumstanced.  I was surprised to see this magistrate, always so prudent, become so smooth in the business, as the printing of a book was by that alone legal, I had no longer any objection to make to that of the work.  Yet, by an extraordinary scruple, I still required it should be printed in Holland, and by the bookseller Neaulme, whom, not satisfied with indicating him, I informed of my wishes, consenting the edition should be brought out for the profit of a French bookseller, and that as soon as it was ready it should be sold at Paris, or wherever else it might be thought proper, as with this I had no manner of concern.  This is exactly what was agreed upon between Madam de Luxembourg and myself, after which I gave her my manuscript.

Madam de Luxembourg was this time accompanied by her granddaughter Mademoiselle de Boufflers, now Duchess of Lauzun.  Her name was Amelia.  She was a charming girl.  She really had a maiden beauty, mildness and timidity.  Nothing could be more lovely than her person, nothing more chaste and tender than the sentiments she inspired.  She was, besides, still a child under eleven years of age.  Madam de Luxembourg, who thought her too timid, used every endeavor to animate her.  She permitted me several times to give her a kiss, which I did with my usual awkwardness.  Instead of saying flattering things to her, as any other person would have done, I remained silent and disconcerted, and I know not which of the two, the little girl or myself, was most ashamed.

I met her one day alone in the staircase of the little castle.  She had been to see Theresa, with whom her governess still was.  Not knowing what else to say, I proposed to her a kiss, which, in the innocence of her heart, she did not refuse; having in the morning received one from me by order of her grandmother, and in her presence.  The next day, while reading Emilius by the side of the bed of Madam de Luxembourg, I came to a passage in which I justly censure that which I had done the preceding evening.  She thought the reflection extremely just, and said some very sensible things upon the subject which made me blush.  How was I enraged at my incredible stupidity, which has frequently given me the appearance of guilt when I was nothing more than a fool and embarrassed!  A stupidity, which in a man known to be endowed with some wit, is considered as a false excuse.  I can safely swear that in this kiss, as well as in the others, the heart and thoughts of Mademoiselle Amelia were not more pure than my own, and that if I could have avoided meeting her I should have done it; not that I had not great pleasure in seeing her,

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