Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 10 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 83 pages of information about Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 10.

Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 10 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 83 pages of information about Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 10.
have entered a society of men of letters of the first merit; M. de Mairan, Clairaut, De Guignes and the Abbe Barthelemi, with the first two of whom I had already made an acquaintance, and that of the two others was very desirable.  In fine, for this trifling employment, the duties of which I might so commodiously have discharged, there was a salary of eight hundred livres (thirty-three pounds); I was for a few hours undecided, and this from a fear of making Margency angry and displeasing M. de Malesherbes.  But at length the insupportable constraint of not having it in my power to work when I thought proper, and to be commanded by time; and moreover the certainty of badly performing the functions with which I was to charge myself, prevailed over everything, and determined me to refuse a place for which I was unfit.  I knew that my whole talent consisted in a certain warmth of mind with respect to the subjects of what I had to treat, and that nothing but the love of that which was great, beautiful and sublime, could animate my genius.  What would the subjects of the extracts I should have had to make from books, or even the books themselves, have signified to me?  My indifference about them would have frozen my pen, and stupefied my mind.  People thought I could make a trade of writing, as most of the other men of letters did, instead of which I never could write but from the warmth of imagination.  This certainly was not necessary for the ‘Journal des Savans’.  I therefore wrote to Margency a letter of thanks, in the politest terms possible, and so well explained to him my reasons, that it was not possible that either he or M. de Malesherbes could imagine there was pride or ill-humor in my refusal.  They both approved of it without receiving me less politely, and the secret was so well kept that it was never known to the public.

The proposition did not come in a favorable moment.  I had some time before this formed the project of quitting literature, and especially the trade of an author.  I had been disgusted with men of letters by everything that had lately befallen me, and had learned from experience that it was impossible to proceed in the same track without having some connections with them.  I was not much less dissatisfied with men of the world, and in general with the mixed life I had lately led, half to myself and half devoted to societies for which I was unfit.  I felt more than ever, and by constant experience, that every unequal association is disadvantageous to the weaker person.  Living with opulent people, and in a situation different from that I had chosen, without keeping a house as they did, I was obliged to imitate them in many things; and little expenses, which were nothing to their fortunes, were for me not less ruinous than indispensable.  Another man in the country-house of a friend, is served by his own servant, as well at table as in his chamber; he sends him to seek for everything he wants; having nothing directly to do with the servants of

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