Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 05 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 71 pages of information about Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 05.

Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 05 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 71 pages of information about Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 05.
for improvement, I might be left without a single resource for gaining a livelihood:  in short, I extorted her consent more by importunity and caresses than by any satisfactory reasons.  Proud of my success, I immediately ran to thank M. Coccelli, Director-General of the Survey, as though I had performed the most heroic action, and quitted my employment without cause, reason, or pretext, with as much pleasure as I had accepted it two years before.

This step, ridiculous as it may appear, procured me a kind of consideration, which I found extremely useful.  Some supposed I had resources which I did not possess; others, seeing me totally given up to music, judged of my abilities by the sacrifice I had made, and concluded that with such a passion for the art, I must possess it in a superior degree.  In a nation of blind men, those with one eye are kings.  I passed here for an excellent master, because all the rest were very bad ones.  Possessing taste in singing, and being favored by my age and figure, I soon procured more scholars than were sufficient to compensate for the losses of my secretary’s pay.  It is certain, that had it been reasonable to consider the pleasure of my situation only, it was impossible to pass more speedily from one extreme to the other.  At our measuring, I was confined eight hours in the day to the most unentertaining employment, with yet more disagreeable company.  Shut up in a melancholy counting-house, empoisoned by the smell and respiration of a number of clowns, the major part of whom were ill-combed and very dirty, what with attention, bad air, constraint and weariness, I was sometimes so far overcome as to occasion a vertigo.  Instead of this, behold me admitted into the fashionable world, sought after in the first houses, and everywhere received with an air of satisfaction; amiable and gay young ladies awaiting my arrival, and welcoming me with pleasure; I see nothing but charming objects, smell nothing but roses and orange flowers; singing, chatting, laughter, and amusements, perpetually succeed each other.  It must be allowed, that reckoning all these advantages, no hesitation was necessary in the choice; in fact, I was so content with mine, that I never once repented it; nor do I even now, when, free from the irrational motives that influenced me at that time, I weigh in the scale of reason every action of my life.

This is, perhaps, the only time that, listening to inclination, I was not deceived in my expectations.  The easy access, obliging temper, and free humor of this country, rendered a commerce with the world agreeable, and the inclination I then felt for it, proves to me, that if I have a dislike for society, it is more their fault than mine.  It is a pity the Savoyards are not rich:  though, perhaps, it would be a still greater pity if they were so, for altogether they are the best, the most sociable people that I know, and if there is a little city in the world where the pleasures of life are experienced

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