Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 04 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 60 pages of information about Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 04.

Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 04 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 60 pages of information about Confessions of J. J. Rousseau, the — Volume 04.

At length, they bethought themselves, that they must return to town before night; even now we had but just time to reach it by daylight; and we hastened our departure in the same order we came.  Had I pleased myself, I should certainly have reversed this order, for the glance of Mademoiselle Galley had reached my heart, but I dared not mention it, and the proposal could not reasonably come from her.  On the way, we expressed our sorrow that the day was over, but far from complaining of the shortness of its duration, we were conscious of having prolonged it by every possible amusement.

I quitted them in nearly the same spot where I had taken them up.  With what regret did we part!  With what pleasure did we form projects to renew our meeting!  Delightful hours, which we passed innocently together, yet were worth ages of familiarity!  The sweet remembrance of those days cost those amiable girls nothing; the tender union which reigned among us equalled more lively pleasures, with which it could not have existed.  We loved each other without shame or mystery, and wished to continue our reciprocal affection.  There is a species of enjoyment connected with innocence of manners which is superior to any other, because it has no interval; for myself, the remembrance of such a day touches me nearer, delights me more, and returns with greater rapture to my heart than any other pleasure I ever tasted.  I hardly knew what I wished with those charming girls.  I do not say:  that had the arrangement been in my power, I should have divided my heart between them; I certainly felt some degree of preference:  though I should have been happy to have had Mademoiselle de G——­, for a mistress, I think, by choice, I should have liked her, better as a confidante; be that as it may, I felt on leaving them as though I could not live without either.  Who would have thought that I should never see them more; and that here our ephemeral amours must end?

Those who read this will not fail to laugh at my gallantries, and remark, that after very promising preliminaries, my most forward adventures concluded by a kiss of the hand:  yet be not mistaken, reader, in your estimate of my enjoyments; I have, perhaps, tasted more real pleasure in my amours, which concluded by a kiss of the hand, than you will ever have in yours, which, at least, begin there.

Venture, who had gone to bed late the night before, came in soon after me.  I did not now see him with my usual satisfaction, and took care not to inform him how I had passed the day.  The ladies had spoken of him slightingly, and appeared discontented at finding me in such bad hands; this hurt him in my esteem; besides, whatever diverted my ideas from them was at this time disagreeable.  However, he soon brought me back to him and myself, by speaking of the situation of my affairs, which was too critical to last; for, though I spent very little, my slender finances were almost exhausted.  I was without resource; no news of Madam de Warrens; not knowing what would become of me, and feeling a cruel pang at heart to see the friend of Mademoiselle Galley reduced to beggary.

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