however attached we may be to him, we can only serve
him according to the best of our own judgment.
The Queen said to me, ’This portfolio contains
scarcely anything but documents of a most dangerous
description in the event of a trial taking place,
if it should fall into the hands of revolutionary
persons.’ She mentioned, too, a single
document which would, under the same circumstances,
be useful. It is my duty to interpret her words,
and consider them as orders. She meant to say,
’You will save such a paper, you will destroy
the rest if they are likely to be taken from you.’
If it were not so, was there any occasion for her
to enter into any detail as to what the portfolio
contained? The order to keep it was sufficient.
Probably it contains, moreover, the letters of that
part of the family which has emigrated; there is nothing
which may have been foreseen or decided upon that
can be useful now; and there can be no political thread
which has not been cut by the events of the 10th of
August and the imprisonment of the King. My
house is about to be surrounded; I cannot conceal
anything of such bulk; I might, then, through want
of foresight, give up that which would cause the condemnation
of the King. Let us open the portfolio, save
the document alluded to, and destroy the rest.”
I took a knife and cut open one side of the portfolio.
I saw a great number of envelopes endorsed by the
King’s own hand. M. Gougenot found there
the former seals of the King,
[No doubt it was in order to have the ancient seals
ready at a moment’s notice, in case of a counter-revolution,
that the Queen desired me not to quit the Tuileries.
M. Gougenot threw the seals into the river, one from
above the Pont Neuf, and the other from near the Pont
Royal.—Madame Campan.]
such as they were before the Assembly had changed
the inscription. At this moment we heard a great
noise; he agreed to tie up the portfolio, take it
again under his cloak, and go to a safe place to execute
what I had taken upon me to determine. He made
me swear, by all I held most sacred, that I would
affirm, under every possible emergency, that the course
I was pursuing had not been dictated to me by anybody;
and that, whatever might be the result, I would take
all the credit or all the blame upon myself.
I lifted up my hand and took the oath he required;
he went out. Half an hour afterwards a great
number of armed men came to my house; they placed
sentinels at all the outlets; they broke open secretaires
and closets of which they had not the keys; they ’searched
the flower-pots and boxes; they examined the cellars;
and the commandant repeatedly said, “Look particularly
for papers.” In the afternoon M. Gougenot
returned. He had still the seals of France about
him, and he brought me a statement of all that he
had burnt.