was a responsibility I did not wish to take upon myself before God and man.  Yet, I felt as I said, that to declare the State bankrupt would be the wisest course, and I am bold enough to think, that there is not a man, having no personal interest in the continuance of imposts, who of two evils, viz., vastly increased taxation, and national failure, would not prefer the latter.  We were in the condition of a man who unfortunately must choose between passing twelve or fifteen years in his bed, in continual pain, or having his leg cut off.  Who can doubt this? he would prefer the loss of his leg by a painful operation, in order to find himself two months after quite well, free from suffering and in the enjoyment of all his faculties.

I shrunk accordingly from the finances for the reason I have above given, and made M. le Duc d’Orleans so angry by my refusal to accept the office he had proposed to me, that for three weeks he sulked and would not speak to me, except upon unimportant matters.

At the end of that time, in the midst of a languishing conversation, he exclaimed, “Very well, then.  You stick to your text, you won’t have the finances?”

I respectfully lowered my eyes and replied, in a gentle tone, that I thought that question was settled.  He could not restrain some complaints, but they were not bitter, nor was he angry, and then rising and taking a few turns in the room, without saying a word, and his head bent, as was his custom when embarrassed, he suddenly spun round upon me, and exclaimed, “But whom shall we put there?”

I suggested the Duc de Noailles, and although the suggestion at first met with much warm opposition from M. le Duc d’Orleans, it was ultimately accepted by him.

The moment after we had settled this point he said to me, “And you! what will you be?” and he pressed me so much to explain myself that I said at last if he would put me in the council of affairs of the interior, I thought I should do better there than elsewhere.

“Chief, then,” replied he with vivacity.

“No, no! not that,” said I; “simply a place in the council.”

We both insisted, he for, I against.  “A place in that council,” he said, “would be ridiculous, and cannot be thought of.  Since you will not be chief, there is only one post which suits you, and which suits me also.  You must be in the council I shall be in the Supreme Council.”

I accepted the post, and thanked him.  From that moment this distinction remained fixed.

I will not enter into all the suggestions I offered to M. le Duc d’Orleans respecting the Regency, or give the details of all the projects I submitted to him.  Many of those projects and suggestions were either acted upon only partially, or not acted upon at all, although nearly every one met with his approval.  But he was variable as the winds, and as difficult to hold.  In my dealings with him I had to do with a person very different from that estimable Dauphin who was so rudely taken away from us.