only by success, or by firm conviction that he could
not reach what he aimed at, or unless, as he wandered
thus in deep darkness, a glimmer of light came to
him from some other cranny. He passed thus his
days in sapping and counter-sapping. The most
impudent deceit had become natural to him, and was
concealed under an air that was simple, upright, sincere,
often bashful. He would have spoken with grace
and forcibly, if, fearful of saying more than he wished,
he had not accustomed himself to a fictitious hesitation,
a stuttering—which disfigured his speech,
and which, redoubled when important things were in
question, became insupportable and sometimes unintelligible.
He had wit, learning, knowledge of the world; much
desire to please and insinuate himself, but all was
spoiled by an odour of falsehood which escaped in
spite of him through every pore of his body—even
in the midst of his gaiety, which made whoever beheld
it sad. Wicked besides, with reflection, both
by nature and by argument, treacherous and ungrateful,
expert in the blackest villainies, terribly brazen
when detected; he desired everything, envied everything,
and wished to seize everything. It was known
afterwards, when he no longer could restrain himself,
to what an extent he was selfish, debauched, inconsistent,
ignorant of everything, passionate, headstrong, blasphemous
and mad, and to what an extent he publicly despised
his master, the state, and all the world, never hesitating
to sacrifice everybody and everything to his credit,
his power, his absolute authority, his greatness,
his avarice, his fears, and his vengeance.
Such was the sage to whom M. le Duc d’Orleans
was confided in early youth!
Such a good master did not lose his pains with his
new disciple, in whom the excellent principles of
Saint-Laurent had not had time to take deep root,
whatever esteem and affection he may have preserved
through life for that worthy man. I will admit
here, with bitterness, for everything should be sacrificed
to the truth, that M. le Duc d’Orleans brought
into the world a failing—let us call things
by their names—a weakness, which unceasingly
spoiled all his talents, and which were of marvellous
use to his preceptor all his life. Dubois led
him into debauchery, made him despise all duty and
all decency, and persuaded him that he had too much
mind to be the dupe of religion, which he said was
a politic invention to frighten ordinary, intellects,
and keep the people in subjection. He filled
him too with his favourite principle, that probity
in man and virtue in woman, are mere chimeras, without
existence in anybody except a few poor slaves of early
training. This was the basis of the good ecclesiatic’s
doctrines, whence arose the license of falsehood, deceit,
artifice, infidelity, perfidy; in a word, every villainy,
every crime, was turned into policy, capacity, greatness,
liberty and depth of intellect, enlightenment, good
conduct, if it could be hidden, and if suspicions
and common prejudices could be avoided.