The next moment the door closed behind her, and Hugh found himself standing alone on the landing outside it.
Although the scene with her husband did not kill Diane, it went very near it. For some time she was dangerously ill, but at last the combined efforts of doctor and nurse restored her once more to a frail hold upon life, and the resiliency of youth accomplished the rest.
Curiously enough, the remembrance of Hugh’s brief visit to her bedside held for her no force of reality. When the fever which had ensued abated, she described the whole scene in detail to Virginie and the nurse as an evil dream which she had had—and pitifully they let her continue in this belief.
Even Hugh himself had been compelled, under protest, to take part in this deception. The doctor, a personal friend of his, had not minced matters.
“You’ve acted the part of an unmitigated coward, Vallincourt—salving your own fool conscience at your wife’s expense. Even if you no longer love her—”
“But I do love her,” protested Hugh. “I—I worship her!”
Jim Lancaster stared. In common with most medical men he was more or less used to the odd vagaries of human nature, but Hugh’s attitude struck him as altogether incomprehensible.
“Then what in the name of thunder have you been getting at?” he demanded.
“I both love and hate her,” declared Hugh wretchedly.
“That’s rot,” retorted the other. “It’s impossible.”
“It’s not impossible.”
Hugh rose and began pacing backwards and forwards. Lancaster’s eyes rested on him thoughtfully. The man had altered during the last few weeks—altered incredibly. He was a stone lighter to start with, and his blond, clear-cut face had the worn look born of mental conflict. His eyes were red-rimmed as though from insufficient sleep.
“It’s not impossible.” Hugh paused in his restless pacing to and fro. “I love her because I can’t help myself. I hate her because I ought never to have married her—never made a woman of her type the mother of my child.”
“All mothers are sacred,” suggested the doctor quietly.
Hugh seemed not to hear him.
“How long is this pretence to go on, Lancaster?” he demanded irritably.
“What pretence?”
“This pretence that nothing is changed—nothing altered—between my wife and myself?”
“For ever, I hope. So that, after all, there will have been no pretence.”
But the appeal of the speech was ineffectual. Hugh looked at the other man unmoved.
“It’s no use hoping that you and I can see things from the same standpoint,” he added stubbornly. “I’ve made my decision—laid down the lines of our future life together. I’m only waiting till you, as a medical man, tell me that Diane’s health is sufficiently restored for me to inform her.”
“No woman is ever in such health that you can break her heart with impunity.”