a being so variously compounded? It is a question
much debated. Some read his history in a certain
intricacy of nerve and the success of successive digestions;
others find him an exiled piece of heaven blown upon
and determined by the breath of God; and both schools
of theorists will scream like scalded children at
a word of doubt. Yet either of these views, however
plausible, is beside the question; either may be right;
and I care not; I ask a more particular answer, and
to a more immediate point. What is the man?
There is Something that was before hunger and that
remains behind after a meal. It may or may not
be engaged in any given act or passion, but when it
is, it changes, heightens, and sanctifies. Thus
it is not engaged in lust, where satisfaction ends
the chapter; and it is engaged in love, where no satisfaction
can blunt the edge of the desire, and where age, sickness,
or alienation may deface what was desirable without
diminishing the sentiment. This something, which
is the man, is a permanence which abides through the
vicissitudes of passion, now overwhelmed and now triumphant,
now unconscious of itself in the immediate distress
of appetite or pain, now rising unclouded above all.
So, to the man, his own central self fades and grows
clear again amid the tumult of the senses, like a
revolving Pharos in the night. It is forgotten;
it is hid, it seems, for ever; and yet in the next
calm hour he shall behold himself once more, shining
and unmoved among changes and storm.
Mankind, in the sense of the creeping mass that is
born and eats, that generates and dies, is but the
aggregate of the outer and lower sides of man.
This inner consciousness, this lantern alternately
obscured and shining, to and by which the individual
exists and must order his conduct, is something special
to himself and not common to the race. His joys
delight, his sorrows wound him, according as this
is interested or indifferent in the affair; according
as they arise in an imperial war or in a broil conducted
by the tributary chieftains of the mind. He may
lose all, and this not suffer; he may lose what
is materially a trifle, and this leap in his
bosom with a cruel pang. I do not speak of it
to hardened theorists: the living man knows
keenly what it is I mean.
’Perceive at last that thou hast in thee something
better and more divine than the things which cause
the various effects, and, as it were, pull thee by
the strings. What is that now in thy mind? is
it fear, or suspicion, or desire, or anything of that
kind?’ Thus far Marcus Aurelius, in one of
the most notable passages in any book. Here
is a question worthy to be answered. What is
in thy mind? What is the utterance of your inmost
self when, in a quiet hour, it can be heard intelligibly?
It is something beyond the compass of your thinking,
inasmuch as it is yourself; but is it not of a higher
spirit than you had dreamed betweenwhiles, and erect