to be believed, if it be a transmigration from one
place to another, that it is a bettering of one’s
condition to go and live with so many great persons
deceased, and to be exempt from having any more to
do with unjust and corrupt judges; if it be an annihilation
of our being, ’tis yet a bettering of one’s
condition to enter into a long and peaceable night;
we find nothing more sweet in life than quiet repose
and a profound sleep without dreams. The things
that I know to be evil, as to injure one’s neighbour
and to disobey one’s superior, whether it be
God or man, I carefully avoid; such as I do not know
whether they be good or evil, I cannot fear them.
If I am to die and leave you alive, the gods alone
only know whether it will go better with you or with
me. Wherefore, as to what concerns me, you may
do as you shall think fit. But according to
my method of advising just and profitable things,
I say that you will do your consciences more right
to set me at liberty, unless you see further into
my cause than I do; and, judging according to my past
actions, both public and private, according to my
intentions, and according to the profit that so many
of our citizens, both young and old, daily extract
from my conversation, and the fruit that you all reap
from me, you cannot more duly acquit yourselves towards
my merit than in ordering that, my poverty considered,
I should be maintained at the Prytanaeum, at the public
expense, a thing that I have often known you, with
less reason, grant to others. Do not impute
it to obstinacy or disdain that I do not, according
to the custom, supplicate and go about to move you
to commiseration. I have both friends and kindred,
not being, as Homer says, begotten of wood or of stone,
no more than others, who might well present themselves
before you with tears and mourning, and I have three
desolate children with whom to move you to compassion;
but I should do a shame to our city at the age I am,
and in the reputation of wisdom which is now charged
against me, to appear in such an abject form.
What would men say of the other Athenians?
I have always admonished those who have frequented
my lectures, not to redeem their lives by an unbecoming
action; and in the wars of my country, at Amphipolis,
Potidea, Delia, and other expeditions where I have
been, I have effectually manifested how far I was from
securing my safety by my shame. I should, moreover,
compromise your duty, and should invite you to unbecoming
things; for ’tis not for my prayers to persuade
you, but for the pure and solid reasons of justice.
You have sworn to the gods to keep yourselves upright;
and it would seem as if I suspected you, or would
recriminate upon you that I do not believe that you
are so; and I should testify against myself, not to
believe them as I ought, mistrusting their conduct,
and not purely committing my affair into their hands.
I wholly rely upon them; and hold myself assured
they will do in this what shall be most fit both for
you and for me: good men, whether living or dead,
have no reason to fear the gods.”