been, according as fortune has been able to bring me
in place where they have been explained; but I have
utterly forgotten it; and if I am a man of some reading,
I am a man of no retention; so that I can promise
no certainty, more than to make known to what point
the knowledge I now have has risen. Therefore,
let none lay stress upon the matter I write, but upon
my method in writing it. Let them observe, in
what I borrow, if I have known how to choose what is
proper to raise or help the invention, which is always
my own. For I make others say for me, not before
but after me, what, either for want of language or
want of sense, I cannot myself so well express.
I do not number my borrowings, I weigh them; and
had I designed to raise their value by number, I had
made them twice as many; they are all, or within a
very few, so famed and ancient authors, that they
seem, methinks, themselves sufficiently to tell who
they are, without giving me the trouble. In reasons,
comparisons, and arguments, if I transplant any into
my own soil, and confound them amongst my own, I purposely
conceal the author, to awe the temerity of those precipitate
censors who fall upon all sorts of writings, particularly
the late ones, of men yet living; and in the vulgar
tongue which puts every one into a capacity of criticising
and which seem to convict the conception and design
as vulgar also. I will have them give Plutarch
a fillip on my nose, and rail against Seneca when
they think they rail at me. I must shelter my
own weakness under these great reputations.
I shall love any one that can unplume me, that is,
by clearness of understanding and judgment, and by
the sole distinction of the force and beauty of the
discourse. For I who, for want of memory, am
at every turn at a loss to, pick them out of their
national livery, am yet wise enough to know, by the
measure of my own abilities, that my soil is incapable
of producing any of those rich flowers that I there
find growing; and that all the fruits of my own growth
are not worth any one of them. For this, indeed,
I hold myself responsible; if I get in my own way;
if there be any vanity and defect in my writings which
I do not of myself perceive nor can discern, when
pointed out to me by another; for many faults escape
our eye, but the infirmity of judgment consists in
not being able to discern them, when by another laid
open to us. Knowledge and truth may be in us
without judgment, and judgment also without them;
but the confession of ignorance is one of the finest
and surest testimonies of judgment that I know.
I have no other officer to put my writings in rank
and file, but only fortune. As things come into
my head, I heap them one upon another; sometimes they
advance in whole bodies, sometimes in single file.
I would that every one should see my natural and
ordinary pace, irregular as it is; I suffer myself
to jog on at my own rate. Neither are these
subjects which a man is not permitted to be ignorant
in, or casually and at a venture, to discourse of.
I could wish to have a more perfect knowledge of
things, but I will not buy it so dear as it costs.
My design is to pass over easily, and not laboriously,
the remainder of my life; there is nothing that I will
cudgel my brains about; no, not even knowledge, of
what value soever.