how sincerely I am devoted to you; if you have, then,
anything to reproach me with, let me at least know
it, for my situation during the last three days lies
been very painful.”—“What has
Bourrienne done?” inquired Josephine earnestly.—“That
does not concern you,” he replied. Then
turning to me he said, “Tis true, I have cause
to complain of you. I have been informed that
you have spoken of important affairs in a very indiscreet
manner.”—“I can assure you that
I spoke to none but your brother. It was he who
led me into the conversation, and he was too well
versed in the business for me to tell him any secret.
He may have reported to you what he pleased, but could
not I do the same by him? I could accuse and
betray him as he has accused and betrayed me.
When I spoke in confidence to your brother, could
I regard him as an inquisitor?”—“I
must confess,” replied Bonaparte, “that
after what I heard from Joseph I thought it right
to put my confidence in quarantine.”—“The
quarantine has lasted three days, General; surely that
is long enough.”—“Well, Bourrienne,
let us say no more about it. Open my letters
as usual; you will find the answers a good deal in
arrear, which has much vexed me; and besides, I was
always stumbling on some stupid nonsense or other!”
I fancy I still see and hear the amiable Josephine sitting up in bed and saying, in her gentle way, “What! Bonaparte, is it possible you could suspect Bourrienne, who is so attached to you, and who is your only friend? How could you suffer such a snare to be laid for him? What! a dinner got up on purpose! How I hate these odious police manoeuvres!”—“Go to sleep,” said Bonaparte; “let women mind their gewgaws, and not interfere with politics.” It was near two in the morning before I retired.
When, after a few hours’ sleep, I again saw the First Consul, he was more kind to me than ever, and I perceived that for the present every cloud had dispersed.’
—[Joseph Bonaparte (Erreurs, tome i. p. 273) says what he reported to his brother was Bourrienne’s conversation to him in the First Consul’s cabinet during Napoleon’s absence. It is curious that at the only time when Napoleon became dissatisfied with Meneval (Bourrienne’s successor), and ordered him not to open the letters, he used the same expression when returning to the usual order of business, which in this case was to a few hours. “My dear Meneval,” said he, “there are circumstances in which I am forced to put my confidence in quarantine.” (Meneval, tome i. p. 123). For any one who has had to manage an office it is pleasant to find that even Napoleon was much dependent on a good secretary. In an illness of his secretary he said, showing the encumbrance of his desk, “with Meneval I should soon clear off all that.” (Meneval, tome i. p. 151.)]
CHAPTER IV.
1800-1801