state, he bade him go and condense it; in twenty years
the sage returned and his history now was in no more
than fifty volumes, but the King, too old then to read
so many ponderous tomes, bade him go and shorten it
once more; twenty years passed again and the sage,
old and gray, brought a single book in which was the
knowledge the King had sought; but the King lay on
his death-bed, and he had no time to read even that;
and then the sage gave him the history of man in a
single line; it was this: he was born, he suffered,
and he died. There was no meaning in life, and
man by living served no end. It was immaterial
whether he was born or not born, whether he lived or
ceased to live. Life was insignificant and death
without consequence. Philip exulted, as he had
exulted in his boyhood when the weight of a belief
in God was lifted from his shoulders: it seemed
to him that the last burden of responsibility was
taken from him; and for the first time he was utterly
free. His insignificance was turned to power,
and he felt himself suddenly equal with the cruel
fate which had seemed to persecute him; for, if life
was meaningless, the world was robbed of its cruelty.
What he did or left undone did not matter. Failure
was unimportant and success amounted to nothing.
He was the most inconsiderate creature in that swarming
mass of mankind which for a brief space occupied the
surface of the earth; and he was almighty because
he had wrenched from chaos the secret of its nothingness.
Thoughts came tumbling over one another in Philip’s
eager fancy, and he took long breaths of joyous satisfaction.
He felt inclined to leap and sing. He had not
been so happy for months.
“Oh, life,” he cried in his heart, “Oh
life, where is thy sting?”
For the same uprush of fancy which had shown him with
all the force of mathematical demonstration that life
had no meaning, brought with it another idea; and
that was why Cronshaw, he imagined, had given him the
Persian rug. As the weaver elaborated his pattern
for no end but the pleasure of his aesthetic sense,
so might a man live his life, or if one was forced
to believe that his actions were outside his choosing,
so might a man look at his life, that it made a pattern.
There was as little need to do this as there was use.
It was merely something he did for his own pleasure.
Out of the manifold events of his life, his deeds,
his feelings, his thoughts, he might make a design,
regular, elaborate, complicated, or beautiful; and
though it might be no more than an illusion that he
had the power of selection, though it might be no
more than a fantastic legerdemain in which appearances
were interwoven with moonbeams, that did not matter:
it seemed, and so to him it was. In the vast warp
of life (a river arising from no spring and flowing
endlessly to no sea), with the background to his fancies
that there was no meaning and that nothing was important,
a man might get a personal satisfaction in selecting