But it was no good thinking about it.  He walked on.  It was now light:  the river was beautiful in the silence, and there was something mysterious in the early day; it was going to be very fine, and the sky, pale in the dawn, was cloudless.  He felt very tired, and hunger was gnawing at his entrails, but he could not sit still; he was constantly afraid of being spoken to by a policeman.  He dreaded the mortification of that.  He felt dirty and wished he could have a wash.  At last he found himself at Hampton Court.  He felt that if he did not have something to eat he would cry.  He chose a cheap eating-house and went in; there was a smell of hot things, and it made him feel slightly sick:  he meant to eat something nourishing enough to keep up for the rest of the day, but his stomach revolted at the sight of food.  He had a cup of tea and some bread and butter.  He remembered then that it was Sunday and he could go to the Athelnys; he thought of the roast beef and the Yorkshire pudding they would eat; but he was fearfully tired and could not face the happy, noisy family.  He was feeling morose and wretched.  He wanted to be left alone.  He made up his mind that he would go into the gardens of the palace and lie down.  His bones ached.  Perhaps he would find a pump so that he could wash his hands and face and drink something; he was very thirsty; and now that he was no longer hungry he thought with pleasure of the flowers and the lawns and the great leafy trees.  He felt that there he could think out better what he must do.  He lay on the grass, in the shade, and lit his pipe.  For economy’s sake he had for a long time confined himself to two pipes a day; he was thankful now that his pouch was full.  He did not know what people did when they had no money.  Presently he fell asleep.  When he awoke it was nearly mid-day, and he thought that soon he must be setting out for London so as to be there in the early morning and answer any advertisements which seemed to promise.  He thought of his uncle, who had told him that he would leave him at his death the little he had; Philip did not in the least know how much this was:  it could not be more than a few hundred pounds.  He wondered whether he could raise money on the reversion.  Not without the old man’s consent, and that he would never give.

“The only thing I can do is to hang on somehow till he dies.”

Philip reckoned his age.  The Vicar of Blackstable was well over seventy.  He had chronic bronchitis, but many old men had that and lived on indefinitely.  Meanwhile something must turn up; Philip could not get away from the feeling that his position was altogether abnormal; people in his particular station did not starve.  It was because he could not bring himself to believe in the reality of his experience that he did not give way to utter despair.  He made up his mind to borrow half a sovereign from Lawson.  He stayed in the garden all day and smoked when he felt very hungry; he did not mean to eat anything