“Give me some more water,” she said.

She wiped her eyes.

“I’m sorry to make such a fool of myself.  I was so unprepared.”

“I’m awfully sorry, Norah.  I want you to know that I’m very grateful for all you’ve done for me.”

He wondered what it was she saw in him.

“Oh, it’s always the same,” she sighed, “if you want men to behave well to you, you must be beastly to them; if you treat them decently they make you suffer for it.”

She got up from the floor and said she must go.  She gave Philip a long, steady look.  Then she sighed.

“It’s so inexplicable.  What does it all mean?”

Philip took a sudden determination.

“I think I’d better tell you, I don’t want you to think too badly of me, I want you to see that I can’t help myself.  Mildred’s come back.”

The colour came to her face.

“Why didn’t you tell me at once?  I deserved that surely.”

“I was afraid to.”

She looked at herself in the glass and set her hat straight.

“Will you call me a cab,” she said.  “I don’t feel I can walk.”

He went to the door and stopped a passing hansom; but when she followed him into the street he was startled to see how white she was.  There was a heaviness in her movements as though she had suddenly grown older.  She looked so ill that he had not the heart to let her go alone.

“I’ll drive back with you if you don’t mind.”

She did not answer, and he got into the cab.  They drove along in silence over the bridge, through shabby streets in which children, with shrill cries, played in the road.  When they arrived at her door she did not immediately get out.  It seemed as though she could not summon enough strength to her legs to move.

“I hope you’ll forgive me, Norah,” he said.

She turned her eyes towards him, and he saw that they were bright again with tears, but she forced a smile to her lips.

“Poor fellow, you’re quite worried about me.  You mustn’t bother.  I don’t blame you.  I shall get over it all right.”

Lightly and quickly she stroked his face to show him that she bore no ill-feeling, the gesture was scarcely more than suggested; then she jumped out of the cab and let herself into her house.

Philip paid the hansom and walked to Mildred’s lodgings.  There was a curious heaviness in his heart.  He was inclined to reproach himself.  But why?  He did not know what else he could have done.  Passing a fruiterer’s, he remembered that Mildred was fond of grapes.  He was so grateful that he could show his love for her by recollecting every whim she had.

LXXII

For the next three months Philip went every day to see Mildred.  He took his books with him and after tea worked, while Mildred lay on the sofa reading novels.  Sometimes he would look up and watch her for a minute.  A happy smile crossed his lips.  She would feel his eyes upon her.