“Is the brute fed?” she asked.

He nodded, smiling; and she lit a cigarette for him.  Then, as she loved to do, she came and sat on his knees.  She was very light.  She leaned back in his arms with a sigh of delicious happiness.

“Say something nice to me,” she murmured.

“What shall I say?”

“You might by an effort of imagination say that you rather liked me.”

“You know I do that.”

He had not the heart to tell her then.  He would give her peace at all events for that day, and perhaps he might write to her.  That would be easier.  He could not bear to think of her crying.  She made him kiss her, and as he kissed her he thought of Mildred and Mildred’s pale, thin lips.  The recollection of Mildred remained with him all the time, like an incorporated form, but more substantial than a shadow; and the sight continually distracted his attention.

“You’re very quiet today,” Norah said.

Her loquacity was a standing joke between them, and he answered: 

“You never let me get a word in, and I’ve got out of the habit of talking.”

“But you’re not listening, and that’s bad manners.”

He reddened a little, wondering whether she had some inkling of his secret; he turned away his eyes uneasily.  The weight of her irked him this afternoon, and he did not want her to touch him.

“My foot’s gone to sleep,” he said.

“I’m so sorry,” she cried, jumping up.  “I shall have to bant if I can’t break myself of this habit of sitting on gentlemen’s knees.”

He went through an elaborate form of stamping his foot and walking about.  Then he stood in front of the fire so that she should not resume her position.  While she talked he thought that she was worth ten of Mildred; she amused him much more and was jollier to talk to; she was cleverer, and she had a much nicer nature.  She was a good, brave, honest little woman; and Mildred, he thought bitterly, deserved none of these epithets.  If he had any sense he would stick to Norah, she would make him much happier than he would ever be with Mildred:  after all she loved him, and Mildred was only grateful for his help.  But when all was said the important thing was to love rather than to be loved; and he yearned for Mildred with his whole soul.  He would sooner have ten minutes with her than a whole afternoon with Norah, he prized one kiss of her cold lips more than all Norah could give him.

“I can’t help myself,” he thought.  “I’ve just got her in my bones.”

He did not care if she was heartless, vicious and vulgar, stupid and grasping, he loved her.  He would rather have misery with the one than happiness with the other.

When he got up to go Norah said casually: 

“Well, I shall see you tomorrow, shan’t I?”

“Yes,” he answered.