At last Philip said: 

“Well, I can’t say anything about other people.  I can only speak for myself.  The illusion of free will is so strong in my mind that I can’t get away from it, but I believe it is only an illusion.  But it is an illusion which is one of the strongest motives of my actions.  Before I do anything I feel that I have choice, and that influences what I do; but afterwards, when the thing is done, I believe that it was inevitable from all eternity.”

“What do you deduce from that?” asked Hayward.

“Why, merely the futility of regret.  It’s no good crying over spilt milk, because all the forces of the universe were bent on spilling it.”

LXVIII

One morning Philip on getting up felt his head swim, and going back to bed suddenly discovered he was ill.  All his limbs ached and he shivered with cold.  When the landlady brought in his breakfast he called to her through the open door that he was not well, and asked for a cup of tea and a piece of toast.  A few minutes later there was a knock at his door, and Griffiths came in.  They had lived in the same house for over a year, but had never done more than nod to one another in the passage.

“I say, I hear you’re seedy,” said Griffiths.  “I thought I’d come in and see what was the matter with you.”

Philip, blushing he knew not why, made light of the whole thing.  He would be all right in an hour or two.

“Well, you’d better let me take your temperature,” said Griffiths.

“It’s quite unnecessary,” answered Philip irritably.

“Come on.”

Philip put the thermometer in his mouth.  Griffiths sat on the side of the bed and chatted brightly for a moment, then he took it out and looked at it.

“Now, look here, old man, you must stay in bed, and I’ll bring old Deacon in to have a look at you.”

“Nonsense,” said Philip.  “There’s nothing the matter.  I wish you wouldn’t bother about me.”

“But it isn’t any bother.  You’ve got a temperature and you must stay in bed.  You will, won’t you?”

There was a peculiar charm in his manner, a mingling of gravity and kindliness, which was infinitely attractive.

“You’ve got a wonderful bed-side manner,” Philip murmured, closing his eyes with a smile.

Griffiths shook out his pillow for him, deftly smoothed down the bedclothes, and tucked him up.  He went into Philip’s sitting-room to look for a siphon, could not find one, and fetched it from his own room.  He drew down the blind.

“Now, go to sleep and I’ll bring the old man round as soon as he’s done the wards.”

It seemed hours before anyone came to Philip.  His head felt as if it would split, anguish rent his limbs, and he was afraid he was going to cry.  Then there was a knock at the door and Griffiths, healthy, strong, and cheerful, came in.