Mildred now with all his heart.  He knew that the best thing he could do was to cease coming to the tea-shop, but he could not bear to think that he had been worsted in the affair, and he devised a plan to show her that he despised her.  Next day he sat down at another table and ordered his tea from another waitress.  Mildred’s friend was there again and she was talking to him.  She paid no attention to Philip, and so when he went out he chose a moment when she had to cross his path:  as he passed he looked at her as though he had never seen her before.  He repeated this for three or four days.  He expected that presently she would take the opportunity to say something to him; he thought she would ask why he never came to one of her tables now, and he had prepared an answer charged with all the loathing he felt for her.  He knew it was absurd to trouble, but he could not help himself.  She had beaten him again.  The German suddenly disappeared, but Philip still sat at other tables.  She paid no attention to him.  Suddenly he realised that what he did was a matter of complete indifference to her; he could go on in that way till doomsday, and it would have no effect.

“I’ve not finished yet,” he said to himself.

The day after he sat down in his old seat, and when she came up said good-evening as though he had not ignored her for a week.  His face was placid, but he could not prevent the mad beating of his heart.  At that time the musical comedy had lately leaped into public favour, and he was sure that Mildred would be delighted to go to one.

“I say,” he said suddenly, “I wonder if you’d dine with me one night and come to The Belle of New York.  I’ll get a couple of stalls.”

He added the last sentence in order to tempt her.  He knew that when the girls went to the play it was either in the pit, or, if some man took them, seldom to more expensive seats than the upper circle.  Mildred’s pale face showed no change of expression.

“I don’t mind,” she said.

“When will you come?”

“I get off early on Thursdays.”

They made arrangements.  Mildred lived with an aunt at Herne Hill.  The play began at eight so they must dine at seven.  She proposed that he should meet her in the second-class waiting-room at Victoria Station.  She showed no pleasure, but accepted the invitation as though she conferred a favour.  Philip was vaguely irritated.

LVII

Philip arrived at Victoria Station nearly half an hour before the time which Mildred had appointed, and sat down in the second-class waiting-room.  He waited and she did not come.  He began to grow anxious, and walked into the station watching the incoming suburban trains; the hour which she had fixed passed, and still there was no sign of her.  Philip was impatient.  He went into the other waiting-rooms and looked at the people sitting in them.  Suddenly his heart gave a great thud.