had been on her back so long that her legs gave way beneath her, and then the soles of her feet tingled so that she could hardly bear to put them to the ground.  But she went on.  She was unused to doing her own hair and, when she raised her arms and began to brush it, she felt faint.  She could never do it as her maid did.  It was beautiful hair, very fine, and of a deep rich gold.  Her eyebrows were straight and dark.  She put on a black skirt, but chose the bodice of the evening dress which she liked best:  it was of a white damask which was fashionable in those days.  She looked at herself in the glass.  Her face was very pale, but her skin was clear:  she had never had much colour, and this had always made the redness of her beautiful mouth emphatic.  She could not restrain a sob.  But she could not afford to be sorry for herself; she was feeling already desperately tired; and she put on the furs which Henry had given her the Christmas before—­she had been so proud of them and so happy then—­and slipped downstairs with beating heart.  She got safely out of the house and drove to a photographer.  She paid for a dozen photographs.  She was obliged to ask for a glass of water in the middle of the sitting; and the assistant, seeing she was ill, suggested that she should come another day, but she insisted on staying till the end.  At last it was finished, and she drove back again to the dingy little house in Kensington which she hated with all her heart.  It was a horrible house to die in.

She found the front door open, and when she drove up the maid and Emma ran down the steps to help her.  They had been frightened when they found her room empty.  At first they thought she must have gone to Miss Watkin, and the cook was sent round.  Miss Watkin came back with her and was waiting anxiously in the drawing-room.  She came downstairs now full of anxiety and reproaches; but the exertion had been more than Mrs. Carey was fit for, and when the occasion for firmness no longer existed she gave way.  She fell heavily into Emma’s arms and was carried upstairs.  She remained unconscious for a time that seemed incredibly long to those that watched her, and the doctor, hurriedly sent for, did not come.  It was next day, when she was a little better, that Miss Watkin got some explanation out of her.  Philip was playing on the floor of his mother’s bed-room, and neither of the ladies paid attention to him.  He only understood vaguely what they were talking about, and he could not have said why those words remained in his memory.

“I wanted the boy to have something to remember me by when he grows up.”

“I can’t make out why she ordered a dozen,” said Mr. Carey.  “Two would have done.”

VI

One day was very like another at the vicarage.