of hers never failed to cause him confusion and anxiety.
They commonly intimated themselves parenthetically
in the midst of some blissful talk they were having,
and overcast his clear sky with retrospective ideals
of conduct or presentimental plans for contingencies
that might never occur. He found himself suddenly
under condemnation for not having reproved her at
a given time when she forced him to admit she had seemed
unkind or cold to others; she made him promise that
even at the risk of alienating her affections he would
make up for her deficiencies of behaviour in such
matters whenever he noticed them. She now praised
him for what he had done for Mrs. Frobisher and her
sister at Mrs. Bellingham’s reception; she said
it was generous, heroic. But Mavering rested satisfied
with his achievement in that instance, and did not
attempt anything else of the kind. He did not
reason from cause to effect in regard to it: a
man’s love is such that while it lasts he cannot
project its object far enough from him to judge it
reasonable or unreasonable; but Dan’s instincts
had been disciplined and his perceptions sharpened
by that experience. Besides, in bidding him take
this impartial and even admonitory course toward her,
she stipulated that they should maintain to the world
a perfect harmony of conduct which should be an outward
image of the union of their lives. She said that
anything less than a continued self-sacrifice of one
to the other was not worthy of the name of love, and
that she should not be happy unless he required this
of her. She said that they ought each to find
out what was the most distasteful thing which they
could mutually require, and then do it; she asked him
to try to think what she most hated, and let her do
that for him; as for her, she only asked to ask nothing
of him.
Mavering could not worship enough this nobility of
soul in her, and he celebrated it to Boardman with
the passionate need of imparting his rapture which
a lover feel. Boardman acquiesced in silence,
with a glance of reserved sarcasm, or contented himself
with laconic satire of his friend’s general
condition, and avoided any comment that might specifically
apply to the points Dan made. Alice allowed him
to have this confidant, and did not demand of him
a report of all he said to Boardman. A main fact
of their love, she said, must be their utter faith
in each other. She had her own confidante, and
the disparity of years between her and Miss Cotton
counted for nothing in the friendship which their
exchange of trust and sympathy cemented. Miss
Cotton, in the freshness of her sympathy and the ideality
of her inexperience, was in fact younger than Alice,
at whose feet, in the things of soul and character,
she loved to sit. She never said to her what
she believed: that a girl of her exemplary principles,
a nature conscious of such noble ideals, so superior
to other girls, who in her place would be given up
to the happiness of the moment, and indifferent to