should go to such lengths in her resentment.
She could conceive of her wishing to punish him, to
retaliate her suffering on him; but to renounce him
for it was another thing; and she did not attribute
to her daughter any other motive than she would have
felt herself. It was always this way with Mrs.
Pasmer: she followed her daughter accurately
up to a certain point; beyond that she did not believe
the girl knew herself what she meant; and perhaps she
was not altogether wrong. Girlhood is often a
turmoil of wild impulses, ignorant exaltations, mistaken
ideals, which really represent no intelligent purpose,
and come from disordered nerves, ill-advised reading,
and the erroneous perspective of inexperience.
Mrs. Pasmer felt this, and she was tempted to break
into a laugh over Alice’s heroics; but she preferred
to keep a serious countenance, partly because she
did not feel the least seriously. She was instantly
resolved not to let this letter accomplish anything
more than Dan’s temporary abasement, and she
would have preferred to shorten this to the briefest
moment possible. She liked him, and she was convinced
that Alice could never do better, if half so well.
She would now have preferred to treat him with familiar
confidence, to tell him that she had no idea of Alice’s
writing him that nonsensical letter, and he was not
to pay the least attention to it; for of course it
meant nothing; but another principle of her complex
nature came into play, and she silently folded the
note and returned it to Dan, trembling before her.
“Well?” he quavered.
“Well,” returned Mrs. Pasmer judicially,
while she enjoyed his tremor, whose needlessness inwardly
amused her—“well, of course, Alice
was—”
“Annoyed, I know. And it was all my fault—or
my misfortune. But I assure you, Mrs. Pasmer,
that I thought I was doing something that would please
her—in the highest and noblest way.
Now don’t you know I did?”
Mrs. Pasmer again wished to laugh, but in the face
of Dan’s tragedy she had to forbear. She
contented herself with saying: “Of course.
But perhaps it wasn’t the best time for pleasing
her just in that way.”
“It was then or never. I can see now—why,
I could see all the time—just how it might
look; but I supposed Alice wouldn’t care for
that, and if I hadn’t tried to make some reparation
then to Mrs. Frobisher and her sister, I never could.
Don’t you see?”
“Yes, certainly. But—”
“And Alice herself told me to go and look after
them,” interposed Mavering. He suppressed,
a little uncandidly, the fact of her first reluctance.
“But you know it was the first time you had
been out together?”
“Yes.”
“And naturally she would wish to have you a
good deal to herself, or at least not seeming to run
after other people.”
“Yes, yes; I know that.”
“And no one ever likes to be taken at their
word in a thing like that.”