During this last absence of his he had let his fancy dwell constantly upon her, until life seemed worth having only if she would share it with him.  He was an artist, and he had always been a bohemian, but at heart he was philistine and bourgeois.  His ideal was a settlement, a fixed habitation, a stated existence, a home where he could work constantly in an air of affection, and unselfishly do his part to make his home happy.  It was a very simple-hearted ambition, and I do not quite know how to keep it from appearing commonplace and almost sordid; but such as it was, I must confess that it was his.  He had not married his model, because he was mainly a landscapist, perhaps; and he had not married any of his pupils, because he had not been in love with them, charming and good and lovely as he had thought some of them; and of late he had realized more and more why his fancy had not turned in their direction.  He perceived that it was already fixed, and possibly had long been fixed.

He did not blink the fact that there were many disparities, and that there would be certain disadvantages which could never be quite overcome.  The fact had been brought rather strenuously home to him by his interview with Cynthia’s father.  He perceived, as indeed he had always known, that with a certain imaginative lift in his thinking and feeling, Whitwell was irreparably rustic, that he was and always must be practically Yankee.  Westover was not a Yankee, and he did not love or honor the type, though its struggles against itself touched and amused him.  It made him a little sick to hear how Whitwell had profited by Durgin’s necessity, and had taken advantage of him with conscientious and self-applausive rapacity, while he admired his prosperity, and tried to account for it by doubt of its injustice.  For a moment this seemed to him worse than Durgin’s conscientious toughness, which was the antithesis of Whitwell’s remorseless self-interest.  For the moment this claimed Cynthia of its kind, and Westover beheld her rustic and Yankee of her father’s type.  If she was not that now, she would grow into that through the lapse from the personal to the ancestral which we all undergo in the process of the years.

The sight of her face as he had pictured it, and of the soul which he had imagined for it, restored him to a better sense of her, but he felt the need of escaping from the suggestion of her father’s presence, and taking further thought.  Perhaps he should never again reach the point that he was aware of deflecting from now; he filled his lungs with long breaths, which he exhaled in sighs of relief.  It might have been a mistake on the spiritual as well as the worldly side; it would certainly not have promoted his career; it might have impeded it.  These misgivings flitted over the surface of thought that more profoundly was occupied with a question of other things.  In the time since he had seen her last it might very well be that a young and pretty girl had met some one