renew his visits, and he easily imagined the means
that had brought him to this pass. From what he
knew of that girl he did not envy her father his meeting
with her when he must tell her his mission had failed.
But had it failed? When Beaton came to ask himself
this question, he could only perceive that he and Dryfoos
had failed to find any ground of sympathy, and had
parted in the same dislike with which they had met.
But as to any other failure, it was certainly tacit,
and it still rested with him to give it effect.
He could go back to Dryfoos’s house, as freely
as before, and it was clear that he was very much
desired to come back. But if he went back it was
also clear that he must go back with intentions more
explicit than before, and now he had to ask himself
just how much or how little he had meant by going
there. His liking for Christine had certainly
not increased, but the charm, on the other hand, of
holding a leopardess in leash had not yet palled upon
him. In his life of inconstancies, it was a pleasure
to rest upon something fixed, and the man who had
no control over himself liked logically enough to
feel his control of some one else. The fact cannot
other wise be put in terms, and the attraction which
Christine Dryfoos had for him, apart from this, escapes
from all terms, as anything purely and merely passional
must. He had seen from the first that she was
a cat, and so far as youth forecasts such things,
he felt that she would be a shrew. But he had
a perverse sense of her beauty, and he knew a sort
of life in which her power to molest him with her
temper could be reduced to the smallest proportions,
and even broken to pieces. Then the consciousness
of her money entered. It was evident that the
old man had mentioned his millions in the way of a
hint to him of what he might reasonably expect if
he would turn and be his son-in-law. Beaton did
not put it to himself in those words; and in fact
his cogitations were not in words at all. It
was the play of cognitions, of sensations, formlessly
tending to the effect which can only be very clumsily
interpreted in language. But when he got to this
point in them, Beaton rose to magnanimity and in a
flash of dramatic reverie disposed of a part of Dryfoos’s
riches in placing his father and mother, and his brothers
and sisters, beyond all pecuniary anxiety forever.
He had no shame, no scruple in this, for he had been
a pensioner upon others ever since a Syracusan amateur
of the arts had detected his talent and given him the
money to go and study abroad. Beaton had always
considered the money a loan, to be repaid out of his
future success; but he now never dreamt of repaying
it; as the man was rich, he had even a contempt for
the notion of repaying him; but this did not prevent
him from feeling very keenly the hardships he put
his father to in borrowing money from him, though he
never repaid his father, either. In this reverie
he saw himself sacrificed in marriage with Christine
Dryfoos, in a kind of admiring self-pity, and he was
melted by the spectacle of the dignity with which
he suffered all the lifelong trials ensuing from his
unselfishness. The fancy that Alma Leighton came
bitterly to regret him, contributed to soothe and
flatter him, and he was not sure that Margaret.
Vance did not suffer a like loss in him.