of letting the house furnished for the winter; that
implied their return to it, but it cost him pangs of
the keenest misery to advertise it; and, when a tenant
was actually found, it was all he could do to give
him the lease. He tried his wife’s love
and patience as a man must to whom the future is easy
in the mass but terrible as it translates itself piecemeal
into the present. He experienced remorse in the
presence of inanimate things he was going to leave
as if they had sensibly reproached him, and an anticipative
homesickness that seemed to stop his heart. Again
and again his wife had to make him reflect that his
depression was not prophetic. She convinced him
of what he already knew, and persuaded him against
his knowledge that he could be keeping an eye out
for something to take hold of in Boston if they could
not stand New York. She ended by telling him that
it was too bad to make her comfort him in a trial
that was really so much more a trial to her.
She had to support him in a last access of despair
on their way to the Albany depot the morning they
started to New York; but when the final details had
been dealt with, the tickets bought, the trunks checked,
and the handbags hung up in their car, and the future
had massed itself again at a safe distance and was
seven hours and two hundred miles away, his spirits
began to rise and hers to sink. He would have
been willing to celebrate the taste, the domestic
refinement, of the ladies’ waiting-room in the
depot, where they had spent a quarter of an hour before
the train started. He said he did not believe
there was another station in the world where mahogany
rocking-chairs were provided; that the dull-red warmth
of the walls was as cozy as an evening lamp, and that
he always hoped to see a fire kindled on that vast
hearth and under that aesthetic mantel, but he supposed
now he never should. He said it was all very
different from that tunnel, the old Albany depot, where
they had waited the morning they went to New York
when they were starting on their wedding journey.
“The morning, Basil!” cried his wife.
“We went at night; and we were going to take
the boat, but it stormed so!” She gave him a
glance of such reproach that he could not answer anything,
and now she asked him whether he supposed their cook
and second girl would be contented with one of those
dark holes where they put girls to sleep in New York
flats, and what she should do if Margaret, especially,
left her. He ventured to suggest that Margaret
would probably like the city; but, if she left, there
were plenty of other girls to be had in New York.
She replied that there were none she could trust,
and that she knew Margaret would not stay. He
asked her why she took her, then—why she
did not give her up at once; and she answered that
it would be inhuman to give her up just in the edge
of the winter. She had promised to keep her; and
Margaret was pleased with the notion of going to New
York, where she had a cousin.