“Of course I know that such things weigh with women, and that personal traits and habits are important in an affair like this.  I am slovenly and indifferent about my dress; but it’s only because I have lived where every sort of spirit and ambition was useless.  I don’t know about city ways, but I could pick up all of them that were worth while.  I spoke of going to Boston; but I would go anywhere else with you, east or west, that you chose, and I know that I should succeed.  I haven’t done what I might have done with myself, because I’ve never had an object in life.  I’ve always lived in the one little place, and I’ve never been out of it except when I was in the army.  I’ve always liked my profession; but nothing has seemed worth while.  You were a revelation to me; you have put ambition and hope into me.  I never saw any woman before that I would have turned my hand to have.  They always seemed to me fit to be the companions of fools, or the playthings of men.  But of all the simpletons, the women who were trying to do something for woman, as they called it, trying to exemplify and illustrate a cause, were the silliest that I came across.  I never happened to have met a woman doctor before you came to me; but I had imagined them, and I could n’t believe in you when I saw you.  You were not supersensitive, you were not presumptuous, and you gave up, not because you distrusted yourself, but because your patient distrusted you.  That was right:  I should have done the same thing myself.  Under my direction, you have shown yourself faithful, docile, patient, intelligent beyond anything I have seen.  I have watched you, and I know; and I know what your peculiar trials have been from that woman.  You have taught me a lesson,—­I ’m not ashamed to say it; and you’ve given me a motive.  I was wrong to ask you to marry me so that you might carry out your plans:  that was no way to appeal to you.  What I meant was that I might make your plans my own, and that we might carry them out together.  I don’t care for making money; I have always been poor, and I had always expected to be so; and I am not afraid of hard work.  There is n’t any self-sacrifice you’ve dreamed of that I wouldn’t gladly and proudly share with you.  You can’t do anything by yourself, but we could do anything together.  If you have any scruple about giving up your theory of medicine, you needn’t do it; and the State Medical Association may go to the devil.  I’ve said my say.  What do you say?”

She looked all round, as if seeking escape from a mesh suddenly flung about her, and then she looked imploringly up at him.  “I have nothing to say,” she whispered huskily.  “I can’t answer you.”

“Well, that’s all I ask,” he said, moving a few steps, away, and suffering her to rise.  “Don’t answer me now.  Take time,—­all the time you want, all the time there is.”

“No,” she said, rising, and gathering some strength from the sense of being on foot again.  “I don’t mean that.  I mean that I don’t—­I can’t consent.”