“Married to him—­oh, God!—­the dream is mad as ineffable.  Are not such thoughts of celestial sweetness—­which include all sentiments from sisterly to maternal love—­forbidden to me, on pain of ridicule as distressing as if I wore dresses and ornaments, that my ugliness and deformity would render absurd?  I wonder, if I were now plunged into the most cruel distress, whether I should suffer as much as I do, on hearing of Agricola’s intended marriage?  Would hunger, cold, or misery diminish this dreadful dolor?—­or is it the dread pain that would make me forget hunger, cold, and misery?

“No, no; this irony is bitter.  It is not well in me to speak thus.  Why such deep grief?  In what way have the affection, the esteem, the respect of Agricola, changed towards me?  I complain—­but how would it be, kind heaven! if, as, alas! too often happens, I were beautiful, loving, devoted, and he had chosen another, less beautiful, less loving, less devoted?—­Should I not be a thousand times more unhappy? for then I might, I would have to blame him—­whilst now I can find no fault with him, for never having thought of a union which was impossible, because ridiculous.  And had he wished it, could I ever have had the selfishness to consent to it?  I began to write the first pages of this diary as I began these last, with my heart steeped in bitterness—­and as I went on, committing to paper what I could have intrusted to no one, my soul grew calm, till resignation came—­Resignation, my chosen saint, who, smiling through her tears, suffers and loves, but hopes—­never!”

These word’s were the last in the journal.  It was clear, from the blots of abundant tears, that the unfortunate creature had often paused to weep.

In truth, worn out by so many emotions, Mother Bunch late in the night, had replaced the book behind the cardboard box, not that she thought it safer there than elsewhere (she had no suspicion of the slightest need for such precaution), but because it was more out of the way there than in any of the drawers, which she frequently opened in presence of other people.  Determined to perform her courageous promise, and worthily accomplish her task to the end, she waited the next day for Agricola, and firm in her heroic resolution, went with the smith to M. Hardy’s factory.  Florine, informed of her departure, but detained a portion of the day in attendance on Mdlle. de Cardoville preferred waiting for night to perform the new orders she had asked and received, since she had communicated by letter the contents of Mother Bunch’s journal.  Certain not to be surprised, she entered the workgirls’ chamber, as soon as the night was come.