None of them, I presume, had ever read a page of
my inditing, or would have cared a fig the more for
me if they had read them all; nor would it have mended
the matter, in the least, had those same unprofitable
pages been written with a pen like that of Burns or
of Chaucer, each of whom was a Custom-House officer
in his day, as well as I. It is a good lesson—though
it may often be a hard one—for a man who
has dreamed of literary fame, and of making for himself
a rank among the world’s dignitaries by such
means, to step aside out of the narrow circle in which
his claims are recognized and to find how utterly
devoid of significance, beyond that circle, is all
that he achieves, and all he aims at. I know
not that I especially needed the lesson, either in
the way of warning or rebuke; but at any rate, I learned
it thoroughly: nor, it gives me pleasure to reflect,
did the truth, as it came home to my perception, ever
cost me a pang, or require to be thrown off in a sigh.
In the way of literary talk, it is true, the Naval
Officer—an excellent fellow, who came into
the office with me, and went out only a little later—would
often engage me in a discussion about one or the other
of his favourite topics, Napoleon or Shakespeare.
The Collector’s junior clerk, too a young gentleman
who, it was whispered occasionally covered a sheet
of Uncle Sam’s letter paper with what (at the
distance of a few yards) looked very much like poetry—used
now and then to speak to me of books, as matters with
which I might possibly be conversant. This was
my all of lettered intercourse; and it was quite sufficient
for my necessities.
No longer seeking nor caring that my name should be
blasoned abroad on title-pages, I smiled to think
that it had now another kind of vogue. The Custom-House
marker imprinted it, with a stencil and black paint,
on pepper-bags, and baskets of anatto, and cigar-boxes,
and bales of all kinds of dutiable merchandise, in
testimony that these commodities had paid the impost,
and gone regularly through the office. Borne
on such queer vehicle of fame, a knowledge of my existence,
so far as a name conveys it, was carried where it
had never been before, and, I hope, will never go
again.
But the past was not dead. Once in a great while,
the thoughts that had seemed so vital and so active,
yet had been put to rest so quietly, revived again.
One of the most remarkable occasions, when the habit
of bygone days awoke in me, was that which brings
it within the law of literary propriety to offer the
public the sketch which I am now writing.
In the second storey of the Custom-House there is
a large room, in which the brick-work and naked rafters
have never been covered with panelling and plaster.
The edifice—originally projected on a
scale adapted to the old commercial enterprise of
the port, and with an idea of subsequent prosperity
destined never to be realized—contains
far more space than its occupants know what to do