Felix, who had never beheld his big brother in Berserk mood, could offer no consolation; nor had he the heart to adorn the tale, and inflict on this poor woman his reflection:  ’This, you see, is what comes of the ferment you have fostered.  This is the reward of violence!’ He longed, rather, to comfort her; she seemed so lonely and, in spite of all her stoicism, so distraught and sad.  His heart went out, too, to Tod.  How would he himself have felt, walking by the side of policemen whose arms were twisted in Nedda’s!  But so mixed are the minds of men that at this very moment there was born within him the germ of a real revolt against the entry of his little daughter into this family of hotheads.  It was more now than mere soreness and jealousy; it was fear of a danger hitherto but sniffed at, but now only too sharply savored.

When she left him to go up-stairs, Felix stayed consulting the dark night.  As ever, in hours of ebbed vitality, the shapes of fear and doubt grew clearer and more positive; they loomed huge out there among the apple-trees, where the drip-drip of the rain made music.  But his thoughts were still nebulous, not amounting to resolve.  It was no moment for resolves—­with the boy lying up there between the tides of chance; and goodness knew what happening to Tod and Sheila.  The air grew sharper; he withdrew to the hearth, where a wood fire still burned, gray ash, red glow, scent oozing from it.  And while he crouched there, blowing it with bellows, he heard soft footsteps, and saw Nedda standing behind him transformed.

But in the midst of all his glad sympathy Felix could not help thinking:  ‘Better for you, perhaps, if he had never returned from darkness!’

She came and crouched down by him.

“Let me sit with you, Dad.  It smells so good.”

“Very well; but you must sleep.”

“I don’t believe I’ll ever want to sleep again.”

And at the glow in her Felix glowed too.  What is so infectious as delight?  They sat a long time talking, as they had not talked since the first fatal visit to Becket.  Of how love, and mountains, works of art, and doing things for others were the only sources of happiness; except scents, and lying on one’s back looking through tree-tops at the sky; and tea, and sunlight, flowers, and hard exercise; oh, and the sea!  Of how, when things went hard, one prayed—­but what did one pray to?  Was it not to something in oneself?  It was of no use to pray to the great mysterious Force that made one thing a cabbage, and the other a king; for That could obviously not be weak-minded enough to attend.  And gradually little pauses began to creep into their talk; then a big pause, and Nedda, who would never want to sleep again, was fast asleep.

Felix watched those long, dark lashes resting on her cheeks; the slow, soft rise of her breast; the touching look of trust and goodness in that young face abandoned to oblivion after these hours of stress; watched the little tired shadows under the eyes, the tremors of the just-parted lips.  And, getting up, stealthy as a cat, he found a light rug, and ever more stealthily laid it over her.  She stirred at that, smiled up at him, and instantly went off again.  And he thought:  ’Poor little sweetheart, she was tired!’ And a passionate desire to guard her from trials and troubles came on him.