“Poultry!” she said.  “Please, am I right for the Tottenham Court Road?”

The old man answered:  “Glory, no, miss; you’re goin’ East!”

‘East!’ thought Nedda; ‘I’d better take him.’  And she got in.  She sat in the four-wheeler, smiling.  And how far this was due to Chardonnet she did not consider.  She was to love and not worry.  It was wonderful!  In this mood she was put down, still smiling, at the Tottenham Court Road Tube, and getting out her purse she prepared to pay the cabman.  The fare would be a shilling, but she felt like giving him two.  He looked so anxious and worn, in spite of his red face.  He took them, looked at her, and said:  “Thank you, miss; I wanted that.”

“Oh!” murmured Nedda, “then please take this, too.  It’s all I happen to have, except my Tube fare.”

The old man took it, and water actually ran along his nose.

“God bless yer!” he said.  And taking up his whip, he drove off quickly.

Rather choky, but still glowing, Nedda descended to her train.  It was not till she was walking to the Spaniard’s Road that a cloud seemed to come over her sky, and she reached home dejected.

In the garden of the Freelands’ old house was a nook shut away by berberis and rhododendrons, where some bees were supposed to make honey, but, knowing its destination, and belonging to a union, made no more than they were obliged.  In this retreat, which contained a rustic bench, Nedda was accustomed to sit and read; she went there now.  And her eyes began filling with tears.  Why must the poor old fellow who had driven her look so anxious and call on God to bless her for giving him that little present?  Why must people grow old and helpless, like that Grandfather Gaunt she had seen at Becket?  Why was there all the tyranny that made Derek and Sheila so wild?  And all the grinding poverty that she herself could see when she went with her mother to their Girls’ Club, in Bethnal Green?  What was the use of being young and strong if nothing happened, nothing was really changed, so that one got old and died seeing still the same things as before?  What was the use even of loving, if love itself had to yield to death?  The trees!  How they grew from tiny seeds to great and beautiful things, and then slowly, slowly dried and decayed away to dust.  What was the good of it all?  What comfort was there in a God so great and universal that he did not care to keep her and Derek alive and loving forever, and was not interested enough to see that the poor old cab-driver should not be haunted day and night with fear of the workhouse for himself and an old wife, perhaps?  Nedda’s tears fell fast, and how far this was Chardonnet no one could tell.