was tempted to get his rook rifle—but what
was the good of a dead rabbit—besides, they
looked so happy! He put the glasses down and
went towards his greenhouse to get a drawing block,
thinking to sit on the wall and make a sort of Midsummer
Night’s Dream sketch of flowers and rabbits.
Someone was there, bending down and doing something
to his creatures. Who had the cheek? Why,
it was Sylvia—in her dressing-gown!
He grew hot, then cold, with anger. He could
not bear anyone in that holy place! It was hateful
to have his things even looked at; and she—she
seemed to be fingering them. He pulled the door
open with a jerk, and said: “What are you
doing?” He was indeed so stirred by righteous
wrath that he hardly noticed the gasp she gave, and
the collapse of her figure against the wall.
She ran past him, and vanished without a word.
He went up to his creatures and saw that she had placed
on the head of each one of them a little sprig of jessamine
flower. Why! It was idiotic! He could
see nothing at first but the ludicrousness of flowers
on the heads of his beasts! Then the desperation
of this attempt to imagine something graceful, something
that would give him pleasure touched him; for he saw
now that this was a birthday decoration. From
that it was only a second before he was horrified with
himself. Poor little Sylvia! What a brute
he was! She had plucked all that jessamine,
hung out of her window and risked falling to get hold
of it; and she had woken up early and come down in
her dressing-gown just to do something that she thought
he would like! Horrible—what he had
done! Now, when it was too late, he saw, only
too clearly, her startled white face and quivering
lips, and the way she had shrunk against the wall.
How pretty she had looked in her dressing-gown with
her hair all about her, frightened like that!
He would do anything now to make up to her for having
been such a perfect beast! The feeling, always
a little with him, that he must look after her—dating,
no doubt, from days when he had protected her from
the bulls that were not there; and the feeling of her
being so sweet and decent to him always; and some other
feeling too—all these suddenly reached
poignant climax. He simply must make it up to
her! He ran back into the house and stole upstairs.
Outside her room he listened with all his might,
but could hear nothing; then tapped softly with one
nail, and, putting his mouth to the keyhole, whispered:
“Sylvia!” Again and again he whispered
her name. He even tried the handle, meaning
to open the door an inch, but it was bolted.
Once he thought he heard a noise like sobbing, and
this made him still more wretched. At last he
gave it up; she would not come, would not be consoled.
He deserved it, he knew, but it was very hard.
And dreadfully dispirited he went up to his room,
took a bit of paper, and tried to write:
“Dearest Sylvia,
“It was most awfully sweet of you to put your stars on my beasts. It was just about the most sweet thing you could have done. I am an awful brute, but, of course, if I had only known what you were doing, I should have loved it. Do forgive me; I deserve it, I know—only it is my birthday.