Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works eBook

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Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 6,432 pages of information about Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works.

Johnny.  Ah!  Tell me all about your beastly time; it’ll do you good.  You and I are different from anybody else in this house.  We’ve lived they’ve just vegetated.  Come on; tell me!

     Faith, who up to now has looked on him as a young male, stares at
     him for the first time without sex in her eyes.

Faith.  I can’t.  We didn’t talk in there, you know.

Johnny.  Were you fond of the chap who—?

Faith.  No.  Yes.  I suppose I was—­once.

Johnny.  He must have been rather a swine.

Faith.  He’s dead.

Johnny.  Sorry!  Oh, sorry!

Faith.  I’ve forgotten all that.

Johnny.  Beastly things, babies; and absolutely unnecessary in the present state of the world.

Faith. [With a faint smile] My baby wasn’t beastly; but I—­I got upset.

Johnny.  Well, I should think so!

Faith.  My friend in the manicure came and told me about hers when I was lying in the hospital.  She couldn’t have it with her, so it got neglected and died.

Johnny.  Um!  I believe that’s quite common.

Faith.  And she told me about another girl—­the Law took her baby from her.  And after she was gone, I—­got all worked up—­ [She hesitates, then goes swiftly on] And I looked at mine; it was asleep just here, quite close.  I just put out my arm like that, over its face—­quite soft—­ I didn’t hurt it.  I didn’t really. [She suddenly swallows, and her lips quiver] I didn’t feel anything under my arm.  And—­and a beast of a nurse came on me, and said “You’ve smothered your baby, you wretched girl!”

I didn’t want to kill it—­I only wanted to save it from living.  And when
I looked at it, I went off screaming.

Johnny.  I nearly screamed when I saved my first German from living.  I never felt the same again.  They say the human race has got to go on, but I say they’ve first got to prove that the human race wants to.  Would you rather be alive or dead?

Faith.  Alive.

Johnny.  But would you have in prison?

Faith.  I don’t know.  You can’t tell anything in there. [With sudden vehemence] I wish I had my baby back, though.  It was mine; and I—­I don’t like thinking about it.

Johnny.  I know.  I hate to think about anything I’ve killed, really. 
At least, I should—­but it’s better not to think.

Faith.  I could have killed that judge.

Johnny.  Did he come the heavy father?  That’s what I can’t stand.  When they jaw a chap and hang him afterwards.  Or was he one of the joking ones?

Faith.  I’ve sat in my cell and cried all night—­night after night,
I have. [With a little laugh] I cried all the softness out of me.

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