was not a bad fellow, but, like most soldiers of the
old Army, had been quite carefully divested of an
aesthetic sense. And it was Leila’s misfortune
to have moments when aesthetic sense seemed necessary.
She had struggled to overcome this weakness, and
that other weakness of hers—a liking for
men’s admiration; but there had certainly been
intervals when she had not properly succeeded.
Her acquaintance with Jimmy Fort had occurred during
one of these intervals, and when he went back to England
so abruptly, she had been feeling very tenderly towards
him. She still remembered him with a certain
pleasure. Before Lynch died, these “intervals”
had been interrupted by a spell of returning warmth
for the invalided man to whom she had joined her life
under the romantic conditions of divorce. He
had failed, of course, as a farmer, and his death
left her with nothing but her own settled income of
a hundred and fifty pounds a year. Faced by
the prospect of having almost to make her living, at
thirty-eight, she felt but momentary dismay—for
she had real pluck. Like many who have played
with amateur theatricals, she fancied herself as an
actress; but, after much effort, found that only her
voice and the perfect preservation of her legs were
appreciated by the discerning managers and public of
South Africa; and for three chequered years she made
face against fortune with the help of them, under
an assumed name. What she did—keeping
a certain bloom of refinement, was far better than
the achievements of many more respectable ladies in
her shoes. At least she never bemoaned her “reduced
circumstances,” and if her life was irregular
and had at least three episodes, it was very human.
She bravely took the rough with the smooth, never
lost the power of enjoying herself, and grew in sympathy
with the hardships of others. But she became deadly
tired. When the war broke out, remembering that
she was a good nurse, she took her real name again
and a change of occupation. For one who liked
to please men, and to be pleased by them, there was
a certain attraction about that life in war-time;
and after two years of it she could still appreciate
the way her Tommies turned their heads to look at
her when she passed their beds. But in a hard
school she had learned perfect self-control; and though
the sour and puritanical perceived her attraction,
they knew her to be forty-three. Besides, the
soldiers liked her; and there was little trouble in
her wards. The war moved her in simple ways;
for she was patriotic in the direct fashion of her
class. Her father had been a sailor, her husbands
an official and a soldier; the issue for her was uncomplicated
by any abstract meditation. The Country before
everything! And though she had tended during
those two years so many young wrecked bodies, she
had taken it as all in the a day’s work, lavishing
her sympathy on the individual, without much general
sense of pity and waste. Yes, she had worked
really hard, had “done her bit”; but of