some extent. But what should I do with Number
Five? The reader must follow out her career for
himself. For myself, I think that she and the
Tutor have both utterly forgotten the difference of
their years in the fascination of intimate intercourse.
I do not believe that a nature so large, so rich in
affection, as Number Five’s is going to fall
defeated of its best inheritance of life, like a vine
which finds no support for its tendrils to twine around,
and so creeps along the ground from which nature meant
that love should lift it. I feel as if I ought
to follow these two personages of my sermonizing story
until they come together or separate, to fade, to
wither,—perhaps to die, at last, of something
like what the doctors call heart-failure, but which
might more truly be called heart-starvation.
When I say die, I do not mean necessarily the death
that goes into the obituary column. It may come
to that, in one or both; but I think that, if they
are never united, Number Five will outlive the Tutor,
who will fall into melancholy ways, and pine and waste,
while she lives along, feeling all the time that she
has cheated herself of happiness. I hope that
is not going to be their fortune, or misfortune.
Vieille fille fait jeune mariee. What a youthful
bride Number Five would be, if she could only make
up her mind to matrimony! In the mean time she
must be left with her lambs all around her. May
heaven temper the winds to them, for they have been
shorn very close, every one of them, of their golden
fleece of aspirations and anticipations.
I must avail myself of this opportunity to say a few
words to my distant friends who take interest enough
in my writings, early or recent, to wish to enter
into communication with me by letter, or to keep up
a communication already begun. I have given notice
in print that the letters, books, and manuscripts
which I receive by mail are so numerous that if I
undertook to read and answer them all I should have
little time for anything else. I have for some
years depended on the assistance of a secretary, but
our joint efforts have proved unable, of late, to keep
down the accumulations which come in with every mail.
So many of the letters I receive are of a pleasant
character that it is hard to let them go unacknowledged.
The extreme friendliness which pervades many of them
gives them a value which I rate very highly. When
large numbers of strangers insist on claiming one
as a friend, on the strength of what he has written,
it tends to make him think of himself somewhat indulgently.
It is the most natural thing in the world to want to
give expression to the feeling the loving messages
from far-off unknown friends must excite. Many
a day has had its best working hours broken into, spoiled
for all literary work, by the labor of answering correspondents
whose good opinion it is gratifying to have called
forth, but who were unconsciously laying a new burden
on shoulders already aching. I know too well that