His weekly axiom and his daily phrase,
I felt them coming in the laden air,
And watched them laboring up to vocal breath,
Even as the first-born at his father’s board
Knows ere he speaks the too familiar jest
Is on its way, by some mysterious sign
Forewarned, the click before the striking bell.
He shrivelled as I spread
my growing leaves,
Till trust and reverence
changed to pitying care;
He lived for me in what
he once had been,
But I for him, a shadow,
a defence,
The guardian of his
fame, his guide, his staff,
Leaned on so long he
fell if left alone.
I was his eye, his ear,
his cunning hand,
Love was my spur and
longing after fame,
But his the goading
thorn of sleepless age
That sees its shortening
span, its lengthening shades,
That clutches what it
may with eager grasp,
And drops at last with
empty, outstretched hands.
All this he dreamed
not. He would sit him down
Thinking to work his
problems as of old,
And find the star he
thought so plain a blur,
The columned figures
labyrinthine wilds
Without my comment,
blind and senseless scrawls
That vexed him with
their riddles; he would strive
And struggle for a while,
and then his eye
Would lose its light,
and over all his mind
The cold gray mist would
settle; and erelong
The darkness fell, and
I was left alone.
Alone! no climber of
an Alpine cliff,
No Arctic venturer on
the waveless sea,
Feels the dread stillness
round him as it chills
The heart of him who
leaves the slumbering earth
To watch the silent
worlds that crowd the sky.
Alone! And as
the shepherd leaves his flock
To feed upon the hillside,
he meanwhile
Finds converse in the
warblings of the pipe
Himself has fashioned
for his vacant hour,
So have I grown companion
to myself,
And to the wandering
spirits of the air
That smile and whisper
round us in our dreams.
Thus have I learned
to search if I may know
The whence and why of
all beneath the stars
And all beyond them,
and to weigh my life
As in a balance, poising
good and ill
Against each other,-asking
of the Power
That flung me forth
among the whirling worlds,
If I am heir to any
inborn right,
Or only as an atom of
the dust
That every wind may
blow where’er it will.
I am not humble; I was
shown my place,
Clad in such robes as
Nature had at hand;
Took what she gave,
not chose; I know no shame,
No fear for being simply
what I am.
I am not proud, I hold
my every breath
At Nature’s mercy.
I am as a babe
Borne in a giant’s