of trained professional vivacity; he would be put on
real estate, and would have the pain of seeing younger
and abler men intrusted with the furniture and other
such goods—goods which draw a mixed and
intellectually low order of customers, who must be
beguiled of their bids by a vulgar and specialised
humour and sparkle, accompanied with antics.
But it is not the thing lost that counts, but only
the disappointment the loss brings to the dreamer
that had coveted that thing and had set his heart
of hearts upon it, and when we remember this, a great
wave of sorrow for Howells rises in our breasts, and
we wish for his sake that his fate could have been
different. At that time Hay’s boyhood
dream was not yet past hope of realisation, but it
was fading, dimming, wasting away, and the wind of
a growing apprehension was blowing cold over the perishing
summer of his life. In the pride of his young
ambition he had aspired to be a steamboat mate; and
in fancy saw himself dominating a forecastle some
day on the Mississippi and dictating terms to roustabouts
in high and wounding terms. I look back now,
from this far distance of seventy years, and note
with sorrow the stages of that dream’s destruction.
Hay’s history is but Howells’s, with differences
of detail. Hay climbed high toward his ideal;
when success seemed almost sure, his foot upon the
very gang-plank, his eye upon the capstan, misfortune
came and his fall began. Down—down—down—ever
down: Private Secretary to the President; Colonel
in the field; Charge d’Affaires in Paris; Charge
d’Affaires in Vienna; Poet; Editor of the Tribune;
Biographer of Lincoln; Ambassador to England; and now
at last there he lies—Secretary of State,
Head of Foreign Affairs. And he has fallen like
Lucifer, never to rise again. And his dream—where
now is his dream? Gone down in blood and tears
with the dream of the auctioneer. And the young
dream of Aldrich—where is that? I
remember yet how he sat there that night fondling
it, petting it; seeing it recede and ever recede;
trying to be reconciled and give it up, but not able
yet to bear the thought; for it had been his hope
to be a horse-doctor. He also climbed high,
but, like the others, fell; then fell again, and yet
again, and again and again. And now at last
he can fall no further. He is old now, he has
ceased to struggle, and is only a poet. No one
would risk a horse with him now. His dream is
over. Has any boyhood dream ever been fulfilled?
I must doubt it. Look at Brander Matthews.
He wanted to be a cowboy. What is he to-day?
Nothing but a professor in a university. Will
he ever be a cowboy? It is hardly conceivable.
Look at Stockton. What was Stockton’s
young dream? He hoped to be a barkeeper.
See where he has landed. Is it better with
Cable? What was Cable’s young dream?
To be ring-master in the circus, and swell around and
crack the whip. What is he to-day? Nothing
but a theologian and novelist. And Uncle Remus—what