Today, treasured in her worn old Testament, I found a dear and gentle letter from you, dated Far Rockaway, Sept. 13, 1896, about our poor Susy’s death. I am tired and old; I wish I were with Livy.
I send my love-and hers-to you all.
S.
L. C.
In a letter to Twichell
he wrote: “How sweet she was in death; how
young, how beautiful,
how like her dear, girlish self cf thirty
years ago; not a gray
hair showing.”
The family was now without plans for the future until they remembered the summer home of R. W. Gilder, at Tyringham, Massachusetts, and the possibility of finding lodgment for themselves in that secluded corner of New England. Clemens wrote without delay, as follows:
To R. W. Gilder, in New York:
Villadi Quarto, Florence,
June
7, ’04.
Dear Gilder family,—I have
been worrying and worrying to know what to do:
at last I went to the girls with an idea: to ask
the Gilders to get us shelter near their summer home.
It was the first time they have not shaken their
heads. So to-morrow I will cable to you and shall
hope to be in time.
An, hour ago the best heart that ever beat for me and mine went silent out of this house, and I am as one who wanders and has lost his way. She who is gone was our head, she was our hands. We are now trying to make plans—we: we who have never made a plan before, nor ever needed to. If she could speak to us she would make it all simple and easy with a word, and our perplexities would vanish away. If she had known she was near to death she would have told us where to go and what to do: but she was not suspecting, neither were we. (She had been chatting cheerfully a moment before, and in an instant she was gone from us and we did not know it. We were not alarmed, we did not know anything had happened. It was a blessed death—she passed away without knowing it.) She was all our riches and she is gone: she was our breath, she was our life and now we are nothing.
We send you our love—and with it the love
of you that was in her heart when she died.
S.
L. Clemens.
Howells wrote his words of sympathy, adding: “The character which now remains a memory was one of the most perfect ever formed on the earth,” and again, after having received Clemens’s letter: “I cannot speak of your wife’s having kept that letter of mine where she did. You know how it must humiliate a man in his unworthiness to have anything of his so consecrated. She hallowed what she touched, far beyond priests.”
To W. D. Howells, in New York: