man himself and put up patiently with the inconveniences
of the situation, and consequently I was willing that
he should have full license now that his own turn
had come. He could not disturb me, with all his
raving and ranting, for my mind had work on hand,
and it labored on diligently, night and day, whether
my hands were idle or employed. I was altering
and amending the plans for my house, and thinking over
the propriety of having the billard-room in the attic,
instead of on the same floor with the dining-room;
also, I was trying to decide between green and blue
for the upholstery of the drawing-room, for, although
my preference was blue I feared it was a color that
would be too easily damaged by dust and sunlight;
likewise while I was content to put the coachman in
a modest livery, I was uncertain about a footman—I
needed one, and was even resolved to have one, but
wished he could properly appear and perform his functions
out of livery, for I somewhat dreaded so much show;
and yet, inasmuch as my late grandfather had had a
coachman and such things, but no liveries, I felt
rather drawn to beat him;—or beat his ghost,
at any rate; I was also systematizing the European
trip, and managed to get it all laid out, as to route
and length of time to be devoted to it —everything,
with one exception—namely, whether to cross
the desert from Cairo to Jerusalem per camel, or go
by sea to Beirut, and thence down through the country
per caravan. Meantime I was writing to the friends
at home every day, instructing them concerning all
my plans and intentions, and directing them to look
up a handsome homestead for my mother and agree upon
a price for it against my coming, and also directing
them to sell my share of the Tennessee land and tender
the proceeds to the widows’ and orphans’
fund of the typographical union of which I had long
been a member in good standing. [This Tennessee land
had been in the possession of the family many years,
and promised to confer high fortune upon us some day;
it still promises it, but in a less violent way.]
When I had been nursing the Captain nine days he was
somewhat better, but very feeble. During the
afternoon we lifted him into a chair and gave him
an alcoholic vapor bath, and then set about putting
him on the bed again. We had to be exceedingly
careful, for the least jar produced pain. Gardiner
had his shoulders and I his legs; in an unfortunate
moment I stumbled and the patient fell heavily on the
bed in an agony of torture. I never heard a
man swear so in my life. He raved like a maniac,
and tried to snatch a revolver from the table—but
I got it. He ordered me out of the house, and
swore a world of oaths that he would kill me wherever
he caught me when he got on his feet again. It
was simply a passing fury, and meant nothing.
I knew he would forget it in an hour, and maybe be
sorry for it, too; but it angered me a little, at
the moment. So much so, indeed, that I determined
to go back to Esmeralda. I thought he was able
to get along alone, now, since he was on the war path.
I took supper, and as soon as the moon rose, began
my nine-mile journey, on foot.