by the side of his dead sister, —a wind
centuries old. As I wrote on mechanically, I became
conscious of a presence in the room, though I did
not lift my eyes from the paper on which I wrote.
Gradually I came to know that my grandmother—dead
so long ago that I laughed at the idea—was
in the room. She stood beside her old-fashioned
spinning-wheel, and quite near me. She wore a
plain muslin cap with a high puff in the crown, a
short woolen gown, a white and blue checked apron,
and shoes with heels. She did not regard me,
but stood facing the wheel, with the left hand near
the spindle, holding lightly between the thumb and
forefinger the white roll of wool which was being spun
and twisted on it. In her right hand she held
a small stick. I heard the sharp click of this
against the spokes of the wheel, then the hum of the
wheel, the buzz of the spindles as the twisting yarn
was teased by the whirl of its point, then a step
backwards, a pause, a step forward and the running
of the yarn upon the spindle, and again a backward
step, the drawing out of the roll and the droning and
hum of the wheel, most mournfully hopeless sound that
ever fell on mortal ear. Since childhood it has
haunted me. All this time I wrote, and I could
hear distinctly the scratching of the pen upon the
paper. But she stood behind me (why I did not
turn my head I never knew), pacing backward and forward
by the spinning-wheel, just as I had a hundred times
seen her in childhood in the old kitchen on drowsy
summer afternoons. And I heard the step, the buzz
and whirl of the spindle, and the monotonous and dreary
hum of the mournful wheel. Whether her face was
ashy pale and looked as if it might crumble at the
touch, and the border of her white cap trembled in
the June wind that blew, I cannot say, for I tell
you I did not see her. But I know she was
there, spinning yarn that had been knit into hose years
and years ago by our fireside. For I was in full
possession of my faculties, and never copied more
neatly and legibly any manuscript than I did the one
that night. And there the phantom (I use the word
out of deference to a public prejudice on this subject)
most persistently remained until my task was finished,
and, closing the portfolio, I abruptly rose.
Did I see anything? That is a silly and ignorant
question. Could I see the wind which had now risen
stronger, and drove a few cloud-scuds across the sky,
filling the night, somehow, with a longing that was
not altogether born of reminiscence?
In the winter following, in January, I made an effort to give up the use of tobacco,—a habit in which I was confirmed, and of which I have nothing more to say than this: that I should attribute to it almost all the sin and misery in the world, did I not remember that the old Romans attained a very considerable state of corruption without the assistance of the Virginia plant.