It was not by any means negative, for no part of his
amiable nature was better developed than regard for
his own care and comfort; but it was not strong enough
to give him Henderson’s capacity for hard work
and even self-denial, nor Mavick’s cool, persevering
skill in making a way for himself in the world.
Why was not Edith his confidante? His respect
for her was undoubted; his love for her was unquestioned;
his trust in her was absolute. And yet with either
Carmen or Miss Tavish he fell into confidential revelations
of himself which instinctively he did not make to Edith.
The explanation of this is on the surface, and it
is the key to half the unhappiness in domestic life.
He felt that Edith was not in sympathy with the associations
and the life he was leading. The pitiful and hopeless
part of it is that if she had been in sympathy with
them, Jack would have gone on in his frivolous career
at an accelerated pace. It was not absence of
love, it was not unfaithfulness, that made Jack enjoy
the hours he spent with Carmen, or with the pleasing
and not too fastidious Miss Tavish, with a zest that
was wanting to his hours at home. If he had been
upon a sinking steamboat with the three women, and
could have saved only one of them, he would not have
had a moment’s hesitation in rescuing Edith and
letting the other two sink out of his life. The
character is not unusual, nor the situation uncommon.
What is a woman to do? Her very virtues are enemies
of her peace; if she appears as a constant check and
monitor, she repels; if she weakly acquiesces, the
stream will flow over both of them. The dilemma
seems hopeless.
It would be a mistake to suppose that either Edith
or Jack put their relations in any such definite shape
as this. He was unthinking. She was too
high-spirited, too confident of her position, to be
assailed by such fears. And it must be said,
since she was a woman, that she had the consciousness
of power which goes along with the possession of loveliness
and keen wit. Those who knew her best knew that
under her serenity was a gay temperament, inherited
from the original settlers of Manhattan, an abounding
enjoyment of life, and capacity for passion. It
was early discovered in her childhood that little
Edith had a will of her own.
Lent was over. It was the time of the twittering
of sparrows, of the opening of windows, of putting
in order the little sentimental spots called “squares,”
where the poor children get their idea of forests,
and the rich renew their faint recollections of innocence
and country life; when the hawkers go about the streets,
and the hand-organs celebrate the return of spring
and the possibility of love. Even the idle felt
that it was a time for relaxation and quiet.
“Have you answered Miss Tavish’s invitation?”
asked Jack one morning at the breakfast-table.
“Not yet. I shall decline today for myself.”
“Why? It’s for charity.”
“Well, my charity extends to Miss Tavish.
I don’t want to see her dance.”