Beatrice eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 415 pages of information about Beatrice.

Beatrice eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 415 pages of information about Beatrice.

His remorse was evidently genuine, and Beatrice felt somewhat appeased.  Perhaps it did not altogether grieve her to learn that she could make him feel sorry.

“You did not force my confidence,” she said defiantly, quite forgetting that a moment before she had reproached him for making her speak.  “I told you because I did not choose that you should think I was not speaking the truth—­and now let us change the subject.”  She imposed no reserve on him as to what she had revealed; she knew that there was no necessity to do so.  The secret would be between them—­another dangerous link.

Beatrice recovered her composure and they walked slowly on.

“Tell me, Mr. Bingham,” she said presently, “how can a woman earn her living—­I mean a girl like myself without any special qualifications?  Some of them get on.”

“Well,” he answered, “that depends upon the girl.  What sort of a living do you mean?  You are earning a living now, of a kind.”

“Yes, but sometimes, if only I could manage it, I think that I should like to get away from here, and take another line, something bigger.  I do not suppose that I ever shall, but I like to think of it sometimes.”

“I only know of two things which a woman can turn to,” he said, “the stage and literature.  Of course,” he added hastily, “the first is out of the question in your case.”

“And so is the other, I am afraid,” she answered shaking her head, “that is if by literature you mean imaginative writing, and I suppose that is the only way to get into notice.  As I told you I lost my imagination—­well, to be frank, when I lost my faith.  At one time I used to have plenty, as I used to have plenty of faith, but the one went with the other, I do not understand why.”

“Don’t you?  I think I do.  A mind without religious sentiment is like a star without atmosphere, brighter than other stars but not so soft to see.  Religion, poetry, music, imagination, and even some of the more exalted forms of passion, flourish in the same soil, and are, I sometimes think, different manifestations of the same thing.  Do you know it is ridiculous to hear you talk of having lost your faith, because I don’t believe it.  At the worst it has gone to sleep, and will wake up again one day.  Possibly you may not accept some particular form of faith, but I tell you frankly that to reject all religion simply because you cannot understand it, is nothing but a form of atrocious spiritual vanity.  Your mind is too big for you, Miss Granger:  it has run away with you, but you know it is tied by a string—­it cannot go far.  And now perhaps you will be angry again.”

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