He thought of it again at night, in his bed, and in the morning when he awoke.

He was not sad, he was not discontented, he could not have told what ailed him.  It was something that had hold of him, something fastened in his mind, an idea that would not leave him and that produced a sort of tickling sensation in his heart.

Sometimes a big fly is shut up in a room.  You hear it flying about, buzzing, and the noise haunts you, irritates you.  Suddenly it stops; you forget it; but all at once it begins again, obliging you to look up.  You cannot catch it, nor drive it away, nor kill it, nor make it keep still.  As soon as it settles for a second, it starts off buzzing again.

The recollection of Martine disturbed Benoist’s mind like an imprisoned fly.

Then he longed to see her again and walked past the Martiniere several times.  He saw her, at last, hanging out some clothes on a line stretched between two apple trees.

It was a warm day.  She had on only a short skirt and her chemise, showing the curves of her figure as she hung up the towels.  He remained there, concealed by the hedge, for more than an hour, even after she had left.  He returned home more obsessed with her image than ever.

For a month his mind was full of her, he trembled when her name was mentioned in his presence.  He could not eat, he had night sweats that kept him from sleeping.

On Sunday, at mass, he never took his eyes off her.  She noticed it and smiled at him, flattered at his appreciation.

One evening, he suddenly met her in the road.  She stopped short when she saw him coming.  Then he walked right up to her, choking with fear and emotion, but determined to speak to her.  He began falteringly: 

“See here, Martine, this cannot go on like this any longer.”

She replied as if she wanted to tease him: 

“What cannot go on any longer, Benoist?”

“My thinking of you as many hours as there are in the day,” he answered.

She put her hands on her hips.

“I do not oblige you to do so.”

“Yes, it is you,” he stammered; “I cannot sleep, nor rest, nor eat, nor anything.”

“What do you need to cure you of all that?” she asked.

He stood there in dismay, his arms swinging, his eyes staring, his mouth agape.

She hit him a punch in the stomach and ran off.

From that day they met each other along the roadside, in by-roads or else at twilight on the edge of a field, when he was going home with his horses and she was driving her cows home to the stable.

He felt himself carried, cast toward her by a strong impulse of his heart and body.  He would have liked to squeeze her, strangle her, eat her, make her part of himself.  And he trembled with impotence, impatience, rage, to think she did not belong to him entirely, as if they were one being.

People gossiped about it in the countryside.  They said they were engaged.  He had, besides, asked her if she would be his wife, and she had answered “Yes.”