THE CHILD

Lemonnier had remained a widower with one child.  He had loved his wife devotedly, with a tender and exalted love, without a slip, during their entire married life.  He was a good, honest man, perfectly simple, sincere, without suspicion or malice.

He fell in love with a poor neighbor, proposed and was accepted.  He was making a very comfortable living out of the wholesale cloth business, and he did not for a minute suspect that the young girl might have accepted him for anything else but himself.

She made him happy.  She was everything to him; he only thought of her, looked at her continually, with worshiping eyes.  During meals he would make any number of blunders, in order not to have to take his eyes from the beloved face; he would pour the wine in his plate and the water in the salt-cellar, then he would laugh like a child, repeating: 

“You see, I love you too much; that makes me crazy.”

She would smile with a calm and resigned look; then she would look away, as though embarrassed by the adoration of her husband, and try to make him talk about something else; but he would take her hand under the table and he would hold it in his, whispering: 

“My little Jeanne, my darling little Jeanne!”

She sometimes lost patience and said: 

“Come, come, be reasonable; eat and let me eat.”

He would sigh and break off a mouthful of bread, which he would then chew slowly.

For five years they had no children.  Then suddenly she announced to him that this state of affairs would soon cease.  He was wild with joy.  He no longer left her for a minute, until his old nurse, who had brought him up and who often ruled the house, would push him out and close the door behind him, in order to compel him to go out in the fresh air.

He had grown very intimate with a young man who had known his wife since childhood, and who was one of the prefect’s secretaries.  M. Duretour would dine three times a week with the Lemonniers, bringing flowers to madame, and sometimes a box at the theater; and often, at the end of the dinner, Lemonnier, growing tender, turning towards his wife, would explain:  “With a companion like you and a friend like him, a man is completely happy on earth.”

She died in childbirth.  The shock almost killed him.  But the sight of the child, a poor, moaning little creature, gave him courage.

He loved it with a passionate and sorrowful love, with a morbid love in which stuck the memory of death, but in which lived something of his worship for the dead mother.  It was the flesh of his wife, her being continued, a sort of quintessence of herself.  This child was her very life transferred to another body; she had disappeared that it might exist, and the father would smother it in with kisses.  But also, this child had killed her; he had stolen this beloved creature, his life was at the cost of hers.  And M. Lemonnier would place his son in the cradle and would sit down and watch him.  He would sit this way by the hour, looking at him, dreaming of thousands of things, sweet or sad.  Then, when the little one was asleep, he would bend over him and sob.