as not to know the difference between meum and tuum!  There could be no other end to it, let all the lawyers and all the clergymen in England put their wits to it.  Thought he knew himself to be muddy-minded and addle-pated, he could see that.  And could anyone say of such a man that he was fit to be the acting-clergyman of a parish—­to have freehold possession in a parish as curer of men’s souls!  The bishop was in the right of it, let him be ten times as mean a fellow as he was.

And yet as he sat there on the gate, while the rain came down heavily upon him, even when admitting the justice of the bishop, and the truth of the verdict which the jury would no doubt give, and the propriety of the action which that cold, reasonable, prosperous man at Silverbridge would take, he pitied himself with a tenderness of commiseration which knew no bounds.  As for those belonging to him, his wife and children, his pity for them was of a different kind.  He would have suffered any increase of suffering, could he by such agony have released them.  Dearly as he loved them, he would have severed himself from them, had it been possible.  Terrible thoughts as to their fate had come into his mind in the worst moments of his moodiness—­thoughts which he had sufficient strength and manliness to put away from him with a strong hand, lest they should drive him to crime indeed; and these had come from the great pity he had felt for them.  But the commiseration which he had felt for himself had been different from this, and had mostly visited him at times when that other pity was for the moment in abeyance.  What though he had taken the cheque, and spent the money though it was not his?  He might be guilty before the law, but he was not guilty before God.  There had never been a thought of theft in his mind, or a desire to steal in his heart.  He knew that well enough.  No jury could make him guilty of theft before God.  And what though this mixture of guilt and innocence had come from madness—­from madness which these courts must recognise if they chose to find him innocent of the crime?  In spite of his aberrations of intellect, if there were any such, his ministrations in his parish were good.  Had he not preached fervently and well—­preaching the true gospel?  Had he not been very diligent among his people, striving with all his might to lessen the ignorance of the ignorant, and to gild with godliness the learning of the instructed?  Had he not been patient, enduring, instant, and in all things amenable to the laws and regulations laid down by the Church for his guidance in his duties as a parish clergyman?  Who could point out in what he had been astray, or where he had gone amiss?  But for the work which he had done with so much zeal the Church which he served had paid him so miserable a pittance that, though life and soul had been kept together, the reason, or a fragment of the reason, had at moments escaped from his keeping in the scramble.  Hence it was that this terrible calamity had fallen