far the superior in wit, in manner, in acquirement,
and in personal advantage. There had been good-nature
and true hearty love on the side of the other man;
but circumstances had seemed to show that his good-nature
was equal to all, and that he was able to share even
his hearty love among two or three. A man of such
a character, known by a girl from his boyhood as John
Eames had been known by Lily Dale, was likely to find
more favour as a friend than as a lover. So it
had been between John Eames and Lily. While the
untrue memory of what Crosbie was, or ever had been,
was present to her, she could hardly bring herself
to accept in her mind the idea of a lover who was
less noble in his manhood than the false picture which
that untrue memory was ever painting for her.
Then had come before her eyes the actual man; and
though he had been seen but for a moment, the false
image had been broken into shivers. Lily had discovered
that she had been deceived, and that her forgiveness
had been asked, not by a god, but by an ordinary human
being. As regarded the ungodlike man himself,
this could make no difference. Having thought
upon the matter deeply, she had resolved that she
would not marry Mr Crosbie, and had pledged herself
to that effect to friends who never could have brought
themselves to feel affection for him, even had she
married him. But the shattering of the false
image might have done John Eames a good turn.
Lily knew that she had at any rate full permission
from all her friends to throw in her lot with his—if
she could persuade herself to do so. Mother,
uncle, sister, brother-in-law, cousin—and
now this new cousin’s bride that was to be—together
with Lady Julia and a whole crowd of Allington and
Guestwick friends, were in favour of such a marriage.
There had been nothing against it but the fact that
the other man had been dearer to her; and that other
fact that poor Johnny lacked something—something
of earnestness, something of manliness, something
of that Phoebus divinity with which Crosbie had contrived
to invest his own image. But, as I have said
above, John had gradually grown, if not into divinity,
at least into manliness; and the shattering of the
false image had done him yeoman’s service.
Now had come this accursed letter, and Lily, despite
herself, despite her better judgment, could not sweep
it away from her mind and make the letter as nothing
to her. M D had promised not to interfere with
her! There was no room for such interference,
no possibility that such interference should take place.
She hoped earnestly—so she told herself—that
her old friend John Eames might have nothing to do
with a woman so impudent and vulgar as must be this
M D; but except as regarded old friendship, M D and
John Eames, apart or together, could be as nothing
to her. Therefore, I say that the letter had
had the effect which the writer of it had desired.