The Last Chronicle of Barset eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 1,290 pages of information about The Last Chronicle of Barset.

The Last Chronicle of Barset eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 1,290 pages of information about The Last Chronicle of Barset.
of a harsh wet March morning.  His wife well knew when she heard his first word on that morning that one of those terrible moods had come upon him which made her doubt whether she ought to allow him to go anywhere alone.  Latterly there had been some improvement in his mental health.  Since the day of his encounter with the bishop and Mrs Proudie, though he had been as stubborn as ever, he had been less apparently unhappy, less depressed in spirits.  And the journey to London had done him good.  His wife had congratulated herself on finding him able to set about his work like another man, and he himself had experienced a renewal, if not of hope, at any rate, of courage, which had given him a comfort which he had recognised.  His common-sense had not been very striking in his interview with Mr Toogood, but yet he had talked more rationally then and had given a better account of the matter in hand than could have been expected from him for some weeks previously.  But now the labour was over, a reaction had come upon him, and he went away from his house having hardly spoken a word to his wife after the speech which he made about his duty to his parish.

I think that at this time nobody saw clearly the working of his mind—­not even his wife, who studied it very closely, who gave him credit for all his high qualities, and who had gradually learned to acknowledge to herself that she must distrust his judgment in many things.  She knew that he was good, and yet weak, that he was afflicted by false pride and supported by true pride, that his intellect was still very bright, yet so dismally obscured on many sides as almost to justify people in saying that he was mad.  She knew that he was almost a saint, and yet almost a castaway through vanity and hatred of those above him.  But she did not know that he knew all this of himself also.  She did not comprehend that he should be hourly telling himself that people were calling him mad and were so calling him with truth.  It did not occur to her that he could see her insight into him.  She doubted as to the way in which he had got the cheque—­never imagining, however, that he had wilfully stolen it—­thinking that his mind had been so much astray as to admit of his finding it and using it without wilful guilt—­thinking also, alas, that a man who could so act was hardly fit for such duties as those which were entrusted to him.  But she did not dream that this was precisely his own idea of his own state and of his own position; —­that he was always inquiring of himself whether he was not mad; whether, if mad, he was not bound to lay down his office; that he was ever taxing himself with improper hostility to the bishop—­never forgetting for a moment his wrath against the bishop and the bishop’s wife, still comforting himself to go to the palace and there humbly to relinquish his clerical authority.  Such a course of action he was proposing to himself, but not with any realised idea that he would so act.  He was as a man who

Copyrights
Project Gutenberg
The Last Chronicle of Barset from Project Gutenberg. Public domain.